158. Kiri		Paper 158
Muutmise mägi		The Mount of Transfiguration
158:0.1 (1752.1) 12. AUGUSTIL 29. aastal pKr reede õhtul enne päikeseloojangut jõudis Jeesus oma kaaslastega Hermoni mäe jalamile sellesama koha lähedale, kuhu noormees Tiglat oli kunagi ootama jäänud, kuni Meister tõusis üksi mäele Urantia vaimset käekäiku määrama ja Luciferi mässule ametlikku lõppu tegema. Nad jäid sinna kaheks päevaks peagi ees ootavateks sündmusteks vaimseid ettevalmistusi tegema.		158:0.1 (1752.1) IT WAS near sundown on Friday afternoon, August 12, a.d. 29, when Jesus and his associates reached the foot of Mount Hermon, near the very place where the lad Tiglath once waited while the Master ascended the mountain alone to settle the spiritual destinies of Urantia and technically to terminate the Lucifer rebellion. And here they sojourned for two days in spiritual preparation for the events so soon to follow.
158:0.2 (1752.2) Jeesus teadis üldiselt ette, mis mäel pidi toimuma, ning soovis väga, et kõik tema apostlid sellest kogemusest osa saaksid. Ta jäi nendega mõneks ajaks mäejalamile just selleks, et neid teda ennast puudutavaks ilmutuseks ette valmistada. Ent nad ei suutnud saavutada seda vaimset taset, millega olnuks õigustatud nende täielik kogemus peagi maa peale ilmuvate taevaste olendite külaskäigust. Kuna Jeesus ei saanud seetõttu kaasa võtta kõiki oma kaaslasi, otsustas ta võtta ainult kolm, kes teda tavaliselt ikka niisugustel erilistel valvustel saatsid. Seega jagasid Meistriga seda ainulaadset kogemust, olgugi osaliselt, ainult Peetrus, Jaakobus ja Johannes.		158:0.2 (1752.2) In a general way, Jesus knew beforehand what was to transpire on the mountain, and he much desired that all his apostles might share this experience. It was to fit them for this revelation of himself that he tarried with them at the foot of the mountain. But they could not attain those spiritual levels which would justify their exposure to the full experience of the visitation of the celestial beings so soon to appear on earth. And since he could not take all of his associates with him, he decided to take only the three who were in the habit of accompanying him on such special vigils. Accordingly, only Peter, James, and John shared even a part of this unique experience with the Master.
1. Muutmine ^top		1. The Transfiguration ^top
158:1.1 (1752.3) Esmaspäeva, 15. augusti varahommikul hakkas Jeesus koos kolme apostliga Hermoni mäkke tõusma, see toimus kuus päeva pärast Peetruse mälestusväärset keskpäevast tunnistust tee veeres mooruspuude all.		158:1.1 (1752.3) Early on the morning of Monday, August 15, Jesus and the three apostles began the ascent of Mount Hermon, and this was six days after the memorable noontide confession of Peter by the roadside under the mulberry trees.
158:1.2 (1752.4) Jeesust oli kutsutud mäkke tõusma üksinda, et sooritada tähtsad toimingud seoses tema lihaliku annetumise edenemisega, sest see kogemus puudutas tema enda loodud universumit. Tähendusrikas oli see, et mainitud erakordne sündmus pidi toimuma ajal, mil Jeesus viibis koos apostlitega paganate maal, ning et see toimuski tegelikult paganate mäel.		158:1.2 (1752.4) Jesus had been summoned to go up on the mountain, apart by himself, for the transaction of important matters having to do with the progress of his bestowal in the flesh as this experience was related to the universe of his own creation. It is significant that this extraordinary event was timed to occur while Jesus and the apostles were in the lands of the gentiles, and that it actually transpired on a mountain of the gentiles.
158:1.3 (1752.5) Nad jõudsid oma sihtkohta — poolele teele mäetippu — natuke enne lõunat ja eine ajal rääkis Jeesus kolmele apostlile veidi oma kogemustest Jordanist ida pool asuvates mägedes kohe pärast ristimist ning samuti veidi lähemalt Hermoni mäel kogetust, kui ta seda üksildast pelgupaika eelmisel korral oli külastanud.		158:1.3 (1752.5) They reached their destination, about halfway up the mountain, shortly before noon, and while eating lunch, Jesus told the three apostles something of his experience in the hills to the east of Jordan shortly after his baptism and also some more of his experience on Mount Hermon in connection with his former visit to this lonely retreat.
158:1.4 (1752.6) Poisina tavatses Jeesus tõusta oma kodu lähedale mäele ja kujutada ette lahinguid, mida impeeriumide armeed olid Esdraeloni tasandikul pidanud. Nüüd tõusis ta Hermoni mäele võtma vastu annetust, mis pidi teda ette valmistama laskumiseks Jordani tasandikele etendama oma Urantial annetumise draama lõpustseene. Meister oleks võinud loobuda selle päeva võitlusest Hermoni mäel ja pöörduda tagasi oma universumivaldusi valitsema, kuid vähe sellest, et ta oli otsustanud täita oma jumaliku poegadeklassi nõudeid, mis Paradiisist Igaveselt Pojalt saadud mandaadiga kaasnesid — ta oli otsustanud täita viimseni ja täiel määral ka oma Paradiisi-Isa tahet. Tol augustipäeval nägid kolm apostlit, kuidas Jeesus keeldus vastu võtmast täit võimu universumis. Nad vaatasid imestunult pealt, kuidas taevased sõnumitoojad lahkusid ja jätsid ta üksi lõpetama oma maist elu Inimese Pojana ja Jumala Pojana.		158:1.4 (1752.6) When a boy, Jesus used to ascend the hill near his home and dream of the battles which had been fought by the armies of empires on the plain of Esdraelon; now he ascended Mount Hermon to receive the endowment which was to prepare him to descend upon the plains of the Jordan to enact the closing scenes of the drama of his bestowal on Urantia. The Master could have relinquished the struggle this day on Mount Hermon and returned to his rule of the universe domains, but he not only chose to meet the requirements of his order of divine sonship embraced in the mandate of the Eternal Son on Paradise, but he also elected to meet the last and full measure of the present will of his Paradise Father. On this day in August three of his apostles saw him decline to be invested with full universe authority. They looked on in amazement as the celestial messengers departed, leaving him alone to finish out his earth life as the Son of Man and the Son of God.
158:1.5 (1753.1) Apostlite usk oli jõudnud haripunkti viie tuhande söötmise ajal ja langenud seejärel kiiresti peaaegu nullini. Nüüd, mil Meister oli oma jumalikkust tunnistanud, tõusis kaheteistkümne loiuks muutunud usk mõne järgmise nädalaga uuesti kõrgpunkti, et siis taas järk-järgult nõrgeneda. Kolmandat korda elavnes nende usk alles pärast Meistri ülestõusmist.		158:1.5 (1753.1) The faith of the apostles was at a high point at the time of the feeding of the five thousand, and then it rapidly fell almost to zero. Now, as a result of the Master’s admission of his divinity, the lagging faith of the twelve arose in the next few weeks to its highest pitch, only to undergo a progressive decline. The third revival of their faith did not occur until after the Master’s resurrection.
158:1.6 (1753.2) Kella kolme paiku tol kaunil pärastlõunal lahkus Jeesus kolmest apostlist, öeldes: „Lähen mõneks ajaks oma Isa ja tema sõnumitoojatega vestlema, palun jääge siia ja palvetage minu tagasitulekut oodates selle eest, et seoses Inimese Poja edasise annetumismissiooniga täidetaks kõigis teie kogemustes Isa tahet.” Seda öelnud, eemaldus Jeesus pikaks nõupidamiseks Gabrieliga ja Melkisedek-Isaga, pöördudes tagasi alles kell kuus. Kui Jeesus nägi, et nad olid tema pika äraoleku pärast ärevusse sattunud, küsis ta: „Miks te kartsite? Te teate väga hästi, et ma pean oma Isa ülesandeid täitma; miks te kahtlete, kui ma teiega ei ole? Ma teatan teile nüüd, et Inimese Poeg on otsustanud elada kogu oma elu teie keskel ja ühena teist. Ärge muretsege, ma ei jäta teid enne, kui mu töö on lõpule jõudnud.”		158:1.6 (1753.2) It was about three o’clock on this beautiful afternoon that Jesus took leave of the three apostles, saying: “I go apart by myself for a season to commune with the Father and his messengers; I bid you tarry here and, while awaiting my return, pray that the Father’s will may be done in all your experience in connection with the further bestowal mission of the Son of Man.” And after saying this to them, Jesus withdrew for a long conference with Gabriel and the Father Melchizedek, not returning until about six o’clock. When Jesus saw their anxiety over his prolonged absence, he said: “Why were you afraid? You well know I must be about my Father’s business; wherefore do you doubt when I am not with you? I now declare that the Son of Man has chosen to go through his full life in your midst and as one of you. Be of good cheer; I will not leave you until my work is finished.”
158:1.7 (1753.3) Kui nad oma nappi õhtueinet sõid, küsis Peetrus Meistrilt: „Kui kauaks me siia mäele vendadest eemale jääme?” Ja Jeesus vastas: „Seniks, kuni te näete Inimese Poja auhiilgust ja saate aru, et kõik, mis ma teile olen öelnud, on tõsi.” Ning nad rääkisid oma tuleaseme hõõguvate süte ümber Luciferi mässust seni, kuni saabus pimedus ja apostlite silmad läksid raskeks, sest nad olid tol hommikul väga vara teele asunud.		158:1.7 (1753.3) As they partook of their meager evening meal, Peter asked the Master, “How long do we remain on this mountain away from our brethren?” And Jesus answered: “Until you shall see the glory of the Son of Man and know that whatsoever I have declared to you is true.” And they talked over the affairs of the Lucifer rebellion while seated about the glowing embers of their fire until darkness drew on and the apostles’ eyes grew heavy, for they had begun their journey very early that morning.
158:1.8 (1753.4) Kui kolm meest olid umbes pool tundi sügavasti maganud, äratas neid äkki mingi lähedalt kostev ragin ning nad nägid ringi vaadates oma suureks imestuseks ja jahmatuseks Jeesust vestlemas kahe särava olendiga, kes olid taevase maailma valgusrõivastes. Jeesuse nägu ja kuju helendasid taevases valguses. Kõik kolm vestlesid võõras keeles, kuid Peetrus oletas mõnest kuuldud sõnast, et need Jeesusega koos olevad olendid olid Mooses ja Eelija; tegelikult olid need aga Gabriel ja Melkisedek-Isa. Füüsilised juhtijad olid Jeesuse palvel selle stseeni apostlitele nähtavaks teinud.		158:1.8 (1753.4) When the three had been fast asleep for about half an hour, they were suddenly awakened by a near-by crackling sound, and much to their amazement and consternation, on looking about them, they beheld Jesus in intimate converse with two brilliant beings clothed in the habiliments of the light of the celestial world. And Jesus’ face and form shone with the luminosity of a heavenly light. These three conversed in a strange language, but from certain things said, Peter erroneously conjectured that the beings with Jesus were Moses and Elijah; in reality, they were Gabriel and the Father Melchizedek. The physical controllers had arranged for the apostles to witness this scene because of Jesus’ request.
158:1.9 (1753.5) Kolm apostlit olid nii hirmunud, et neil läks tükk aega enese kogumiseks, ja kui pimestav nägemus oli haihtunud ning nad nägid Jeesust üksi seismas, sõnas Peetrus, kes toibus esimesena: „Jeesus, Meister, hea, et me siin olime. See auhiilgus rõõmustab meid. Meile on vastumeelt minna tagasi hiilguseta maailma. Kui sa tahad, jäämegi siia ja ehitame kolm lehtmaja — ühe sulle, ühe Moosesele ja ühe Eelijale.” Peetrus rääkis seda sellepärast, et ta oli segaduses ning talle ei tulnud parajasti midagi muud pähe.		158:1.9 (1753.5) The three apostles were so badly frightened that they were slow in collecting their wits, but Peter, who was first to recover himself, said, as the dazzling vision faded from before them and they observed Jesus standing alone: “Jesus, Master, it is good to have been here. We rejoice to see this glory. We are loath to go back down to the inglorious world. If you are willing, let us abide here, and we will erect three tents, one for you, one for Moses, and one for Elijah.” And Peter said this because of his confusion, and because nothing else came into his mind at just that moment.
158:1.10 (1753.6) Peetrus kõneles alles, kui neile lähenes hõbedane pilv ja heitis varju nende kõikide peale. Apostlid ehmusid üliväga ja langesid silmili maha palvetama; nad kuulsid sama häält, mis oli kostnud Jeesuse ristimise ajal ja ütelnud: „See on minu armas Poeg, võtke teda kuulda.” Kui pilv kadus, oli Jeesus taas üksi kolme apostliga, sirutas neile käe, puudutas neid ja ütles: „Tõuske üles ja ärge kartke, te näete veel suuremaidki asju.” Aga apostlid olid tõeliselt hirmul: valmistudes veidi enne keskööd mäest alla minema, oli see kolmik vaikne ja mõtlik.		158:1.10 (1753.6) While Peter was yet speaking, a silvery cloud drew near and overshadowed the four of them. The apostles now became greatly frightened, and as they fell down on their faces to worship, they heard a voice, the same that had spoken on the occasion of Jesus’ baptism, say: “This is my beloved Son; give heed to him.” And when the cloud vanished, again was Jesus alone with the three, and he reached down and touched them, saying: “Arise and be not afraid; you shall see greater things than this.” But the apostles were truly afraid; they were a silent and thoughtful trio as they made ready to descend the mountain shortly before midnight.
2. Mäest allatulek ^top		2. Coming Down the Mountain ^top
158:2.1 (1754.1) Umbes pool teed mäest alla ei ütelnud keegi ühtegi sõna. Siis alustas Jeesus juttu, märkides: „Vaadake, et te ei räägi kellelegi, isegi mitte oma vendadele, mida te olete sellel mäel näinud ja kuulnud, enne kui Inimese Poeg surnuist üles tõuseb.” Meistri sõnad „enne kui Inimese Poeg surnuist üles tõuseb” jahmatasid ja hämmeldasid kolme apostlit. Nad olid alles hiljuti taas kinnitanud oma usku temasse kui Vabastajasse, Jumala Pojasse, ja just näinud oma silmaga tema muutmist auhiilguses, nüüd aga hakkas ta rääkima „surnuist ülestõusmisest”!		158:2.1 (1754.1) For about half the distance down the mountain not a word was spoken. Jesus then began the conversation by remarking: “Make certain that you tell no man, not even your brethren, what you have seen and heard on this mountain until the Son of Man has risen from the dead.” The three apostles were shocked and bewildered by the Master’s words, “until the Son of Man has risen from the dead.” They had so recently reaffirmed their faith in him as the Deliverer, the Son of God, and they had just beheld him transfigured in glory before their very eyes, and now he began to talk about “rising from the dead”!
158:2.2 (1754.2) Peetrusele tulid Meistri surmast mõeldes külmajudinad peale — see mõte oli liialt ebameeldiv — ning kartes, et Jaakobus ja Johannes võivad nende sõnade kohta midagi küsida, pidas ta paremaks jutu kõrvale juhtida. Leidmata muud teemat, ütles ta välja esimese pähetulnud mõtte: „Meister, miks väidavad kirjatundjad, et enne messia tulekut peab kõigepealt ilmuma Eelija?” Ning Jeesus vastas, teades, et Peetrus püüab vältida tema surma ja ülestõusmise mainimist: „Eelija tuleb tõepoolest teed valmistama Inimese Pojale, kes peab kannatama paljut ja kes lõpuks tagasi lükatakse. aga ma ütlen teile, et Eelija on juba tulnud ja nad ei võtnud teda vastu, vaid toimisid temaga nii, nagu nad tahtsid.” Siis mõistsid kolm apostlit, et ta nimetas Eelijaks Ristija Johannest. Jeesus teadis, et kui nad tahavad teda tingimata messiaks pidada, siis peab Johannes olema ettekuulutatud Eelija.		158:2.2 (1754.2) Peter shuddered at the thought of the Master’s dying—it was too disagreeable an idea to entertain—and fearing that James or John might ask some question relative to this statement, he thought best to start up a diverting conversation and, not knowing what else to talk about, gave expression to the first thought coming into his mind, which was: “Master, why is it that the scribes say that Elijah must first come before the Messiah shall appear?” And Jesus, knowing that Peter sought to avoid reference to his death and resurrection, answered: “Elijah indeed comes first to prepare the way for the Son of Man, who must suffer many things and finally be rejected. But I tell you that Elijah has already come, and they received him not but did to him whatsoever they willed.” And then did the three apostles perceive that he referred to John the Baptist as Elijah. Jesus knew that, if they insisted on regarding him as the Messiah, then must John be the Elijah of the prophecy.
158:2.3 (1754.3) Sellest, et nad on tema ülestõusmisjärgsest auhiilgusest aimu saanud, käskis Jeesus vaikida, sest ta ei tahtnud lasta neil arvata, nagu hakkaks ta nüüd, mil teda messiaks peetakse, mingil määral täitma nende ekslikke ettekujutusi imettegevast vabastajast. Ehkki Peetrus, Jaakobus ja Johannes kõige selle üle mõtisklesid, ei rääkinud nad enne Meistri ülestõusmist juhtunust kellelegi.		158:2.3 (1754.3) Jesus enjoined silence about their observation of the foretaste of his postresurrection glory because he did not want to foster the notion that, being now received as the Messiah, he would in any degree fulfill their erroneous concepts of a wonder-working deliverer. Although Peter, James, and John pondered all this in their minds, they spoke not of it to any man until after the Master’s resurrection.
158:2.4 (1754.4) Edasi ütles Jeesus: „Te ei tahtnud mind Inimese Pojana vastu võtta, seepärast nõustusin laskma end vastu võtta teie kindlakskujunenud käsituse kohaselt, ent ärge unustage, et minu Isa tahe peab valdavaks jääma. Kui te otsustate selliselt omaenda tahet järgida, peate arvestama, et teil tuleb taluda palju pettumusi ja kogeda palju katsumusi, aga minu antud õpetusest peaks piisama, et te ka need enda valitud kurvastused võidukalt üle elaksite.”		158:2.4 (1754.4) As they continued to descend the mountain, Jesus said to them: “You would not receive me as the Son of Man; therefore have I consented to be received in accordance with your settled determination, but, mistake not, the will of my Father must prevail. If you thus choose to follow the inclination of your own wills, you must prepare to suffer many disappointments and experience many trials, but the training which I have given you should suffice to bring you triumphantly through even these sorrows of your own choosing.”
158:2.5 (1754.5) Jeesus ei võtnud Peetrust, Jaakobust ja Johannest endaga kaasa muutmise mäele mitte seepärast, et nad oleksid olnud juhtunu nägemiseks mingis mõttes paremini valmistunud kui ülejäänud apostlid või vaimselt kõlblikumad nii haruldaseks eesõiguseks. Sugugi mitte. Ta teadis väga hästi, et ükski kaheteistkümnest polnud vaimselt selleks kogemuseks valmis; seepärast võttis ta kaasa vaid need kolm apostlit, kes olid määratud teda saatma aegadel, mil ta soovis üksinduses tunda rõõmu isiklikust osadusest.		158:2.5 (1754.5) Jesus did not take Peter, James, and John with him up to the mount of the transfiguration because they were in any sense better prepared than the other apostles to witness what happened, or because they were spiritually more fit to enjoy such a rare privilege. Not at all. He well knew that none of the twelve were spiritually qualified for this experience; therefore did he take with him only the three apostles who were assigned to accompany him at those times when he desired to be alone to enjoy solitary communion.
3. Muutmise tähendus ^top		3. Meaning of the Transfiguration ^top
158:3.1 (1755.1) Sündmus, millele Peetrus, Jaakobus ja Johannes muutmise mäel tunnistajaks olid, jäi siiski vaid põgusaks pilguks suurejoonelisele taevasele vaatemängule, mis tol sündmusrikkal päeval Hermoni mäel aset leidis. Muutmise käigus:		158:3.1 (1755.1) That which Peter, James, and John witnessed on the mount of transfiguration was a fleeting glimpse of a celestial pageant which transpired that eventful day on Mount Hermon. The transfiguration was the occasion of:
158:3.2 (1755.2) 1. tunnistas Paradiisi Igavene Ema-Poeg Miikaeli kehastunud elu täielikku annetumist Urantial. Jeesus sai nüüd kinnituse, et Igavese Poja esitatud nõuded on täidetud. Ja selle kinnituse tõi Jeesusele Gabriel;		158:3.2 (1755.2) 1. The acceptance of the fullness of the bestowal of the incarnated life of Michael on Urantia by the Eternal Mother-Son of Paradise. As far as concerned the requirements of the Eternal Son, Jesus had now received assurance of their fulfillment. And Gabriel brought Jesus that assurance.
158:3.3 (1755.3) 2. väljendas lõpmatu Vaim oma rahuldust Urantial sureliku ihus annetumise täielikkuse üle. Lõpmatu Vaimu esindaja universumis, üks Salvingtoni Miikaeli lähimatest kaaslastest ja alati tema kõrval olevatest kaastöötajatest, rääkis tol korral Melkisedek-Isa kaudu.		158:3.3 (1755.3) 2. The testimony of the satisfaction of the Infinite Spirit as to the fullness of the Urantia bestowal in the likeness of mortal flesh. The universe representative of the Infinite Spirit, the immediate associate of Michael on Salvington and his ever-present coworker, on this occasion spoke through the Father Melchizedek.
158:3.4 (1755.4) Jeesus tervitas seda oma maise missiooni edu kinnitust, mille sai Igavese Poja ja lõpmatu Vaimu sõnumitoojatelt, kuid märkis, et ta Isa ei ole maininud, et tema annetumine Urantial on lõppenud. Isa nähtamatust juuresolekust andis tunnistust ainult Jeesuse Isikustatud Kohandaja, kes ütles: „See on minu armas Poeg, võtke teda kuulda.” Ning seda öeldi sõnadega, et ka kolm apostlit kõike kuuleksid.		158:3.4 (1755.4) Jesus welcomed this testimony regarding the success of his earth mission presented by the messengers of the Eternal Son and the Infinite Spirit, but he noted that his Father did not indicate that the Urantia bestowal was finished; only did the unseen presence of the Father bear witness through Jesus’ Personalized Adjuster, saying, “This is my beloved Son; give heed to him.” And this was spoken in words to be heard also by the three apostles.
158:3.5 (1755.5) Pärast seda taevast külastust soovis Jeesus teada oma Isa tahet ja otsustas viia sureliku annetumise loomuliku lõpuni. Selles seisneski muutmise tähtsus Jeesuse jaoks. Kolme apostli jaoks oli see sündmus, millega juhatati sisse Meistri maise elujärgu viimne, Jumala Poja ja Inimese Poja etapp.		158:3.5 (1755.5) After this celestial visitation Jesus sought to know his Father’s will and decided to pursue the mortal bestowal to its natural end. This was the significance of the transfiguration to Jesus. To the three apostles it was an event marking the entrance of the Master upon the final phase of his earth career as the Son of God and the Son of Man.
158:3.6 (1755.6) Pärast Gabrieli ja Melkisedek-Isa ametlikku külaskäiku oli Jeesusel oma hoolekande Poegadega mitteametlik vestlus universumi asjade üle.		158:3.6 (1755.6) After the formal visitation of Gabriel and the Father Melchizedek, Jesus held informal converse with these, his Sons of ministry, and communed with them concerning the affairs of the universe.
4. Langetõbine poiss ^top		4. The Epileptic Boy ^top
158:4.1 (1755.7) Tol teisipäeva hommikul veidi enne hommikueine aega jõudis Jeesus koos kaaslastega apostlite laagrisse tagasi. Lähenedes nägid nad, et apostlite ümber oli kogunenud üsna suur rahvahulk, ning peagi kuulsid nad, kuidas see ligikaudu viiekümnest inimesest koosnev rühm — üheksa apostlit ja võrdsel arvul Jeruusalemma kirjatundjaid ning uskujaid jüngreid, kes olid Jeesuse ja ta kaaslastega Magadanist kaasa tulnud — omavahel valjult vaidles.		158:4.1 (1755.7) It was shortly before breakfast time on this Tuesday morning when Jesus and his companions arrived at the apostolic camp. As they drew near, they discerned a considerable crowd gathered around the apostles and soon began to hear the loud words of argument and disputation of this group of about fifty persons, embracing the nine apostles and a gathering equally divided between Jerusalem scribes and believing disciples who had tracked Jesus and his associates in their journey from Magadan.
158:4.2 (1755.8) Ehkki arutati mitmeid küsimusi, käis põhivaidlus ühe Tibeeria kodaniku üle, kes oli eelmisel päeval Jeesust otsima tulnud. Sellel mehel, Jaakobusel Saafedist, oli umbes neljateistkümneaastane poeg; see oli tema ainus laps ja teda vaevas raske langetõbi. Lisaks sellele närvihaigusele oli poissi vallanud üks neist eksiteele sattunud üleannetutest keskteelistest, keda tol ajal maa peal leidus ja kes kellelegi ei allunud, nii et noormees oli nii langetõbine kui ka deemonist vallatud.		158:4.2 (1755.8) Although the crowd engaged in numerous arguments, the chief controversy was about a certain citizen of Tiberias who had arrived the preceding day in quest of Jesus. This man, James of Safed, had a son about fourteen years old, an only child, who was severely afflicted with epilepsy. In addition to this nervous malady this lad had become possessed by one of those wandering, mischievous, and rebellious midwayers who were then present on earth and uncontrolled, so that the youth was both epileptic and demon-possessed.
158:4.3 (1755.9) Murelik isa, üks Herodes antipase alamatest ametnikest, oli rännanud juba peaaegu kaks nädalat Filippuse valduste läänepiiridel, otsides Jeesust, et paluda tal oma haiget poega ravida. Ning ta jõudis apostlitele järele alles keskpäeva paiku samal päeval, kui Jeesus oli kolme apostliga mäel.		158:4.3 (1755.9) For almost two weeks this anxious father, a minor official of Herod Antipas, had wandered about through the western borders of Philip’s domains, seeking Jesus that he might entreat him to cure this afflicted son. And he did not catch up with the apostolic party until about noon of this day when Jesus was up on the mountain with the three apostles.
158:4.4 (1756.1) Üheksa apostlit olid väga üllatunud ja üsnagi häiritud, kui see mees koos veel peaaegu neljakümne Jeesust otsiva inimesega äkki neile peale sattus. Ajal, mil see rühm saabus, olid üheksa apostlit, või vähemalt enamik neist, alistunud oma vanale kiusatusele — arutanud, kes peaks saabuvas taevariigis kõrgemal kohal olema. Nad vaidlesid parajasti hoolega selle üle, missugused ametikohad igale apostlile tõenäoliselt antakse. Nad lihtsalt ei suutnud messia ainelise missiooni kaua kalliks peetud ideest täielikult vabaneda. Nüüd, mil Jeesus ise oli kinnitanud nende usku, et ta on tõepoolest Vabastaja — vähemalt oli ta tunnistanud oma jumalikkust —, oli veelgi loomulikum hakata tol Meistrist eemalviibimise ajal rääkima neist lootustest ja püüdlustest, mis olid nende südameis tähtsaimal kohal. Nad olid just neid asju arutamas, kui Jaakobus Saafedist ja teised Jeesuse otsijad neid kohtasid.		158:4.4 (1756.1) The nine apostles were much surprised and considerably perturbed when this man, accompanied by almost forty other persons who were looking for Jesus, suddenly came upon them. At the time of the arrival of this group the nine apostles, at least the majority of them, had succumbed to their old temptation—that of discussing who should be greatest in the coming kingdom; they were busily arguing about the probable positions which would be assigned the individual apostles. They simply could not free themselves entirely from the long-cherished idea of the material mission of the Messiah. And now that Jesus himself had accepted their confession that he was indeed the Deliverer—at least he had admitted the fact of his divinity—what was more natural than that, during this period of separation from the Master, they should fall to talking about those hopes and ambitions which were uppermost in their hearts. And they were engaged in these discussions when James of Safed and his fellow seekers after Jesus came upon them.
158:4.5 (1756.2) Andreas astus isa ja poega tervitades lähemale, küsides: „Keda te otsite?” Jaakobus ütles: „Hea inimene, ma otsin teie Meistrit. Loodan, et ta mu haige poja terveks ravib. Tahaksin, et Jeesus ajaks mu lapsest kuradi välja.” Ning isa rääkis apostlitele, et ta poeg on nii haige, et oleks mitmel korral raskete haigushoogude tõttu peaaegu elu kaotanud.		158:4.5 (1756.2) Andrew stepped up to greet this father and his son, saying, “Whom do you seek?” Said James: “My good man, I search for your Master. I seek healing for my afflicted son. I would have Jesus cast out this devil that possesses my child.” And then the father proceeded to relate to the apostles how his son was so afflicted that he had many times almost lost his life as a result of these malignant seizures.
158:4.6 (1756.3) Kui apostlid olid seda juttu kuulnud, astusid seloot Siimon ja Juudas Iskariot isa juurde, öeldes: „Me võime ta ise terveks teha, sul pole vaja Meistri tagasitulekut oodata. Me oleme taevariigi saadikud, me ei hoia enam neid asju saladuses. Jeesus on Vabastaja ja taevariigi võtmed on meie kätte antud.” Andreas ja Toomas arutasid seda samal ajal eemal isekeskis, Naatanael ja teised vaatasid hämmastusega pealt. Siimoni ja Juuda ootamatu julgus, et mitte öelda jultumus, kohutas neid. Siis ütles isa: „Kui teile on antud seda teha, palun teil öelda need sõnad, mis mu lapse neist kütkeist päästaksid.” Siis astus Siimon ette, pani oma käe lapse pea peale, vaatas talle otse silma ja käskis: „Tule temast välja, sa kuri vaim; kuuletu mulle Jeesuse nimel.” Ent poissi haaras vaid veelgi ägedam haigushoog, kirjatundjad hakkasid apostleid pilkama ning pettunud uskujad pidid nende ebasõbralike kritiseerijate mõnitusi taluma.		158:4.6 (1756.3) As the apostles listened, Simon Zelotes and Judas Iscariot stepped into the presence of the father, saying: “We can heal him; you need not wait for the Master’s return. We are ambassadors of the kingdom; no longer do we hold these things in secret. Jesus is the Deliverer, and the keys of the kingdom have been delivered to us.” By this time Andrew and Thomas were in consultation at one side. Nathaniel and the others looked on in amazement; they were all aghast at the sudden boldness, if not presumption, of Simon and Judas. Then said the father: “If it has been given you to do these works, I pray that you will speak those words which will deliver my child from this bondage.” Then Simon stepped forward and, placing his hand on the head of the child, looked directly into his eyes and commanded: “Come out of him, you unclean spirit; in the name of Jesus obey me.” But the lad had only a more violent fit, while the scribes mocked the apostles in derision, and the disappointed believers suffered the taunts of these unfriendly critics.
158:4.7 (1756.4) Andreasele valmistas see järelemõtlematu katse koos õnnetu läbikukkumisega sügavat meelehärmi. Ta kutsus apostlid kõrvale, et nõu pidada ja palvetada. Pärast seda meditatsiooniaega püüdis Andreas, kellele nende lüüasaamine oli rängalt mõjunud ja kes tundis neil kõigil lasuvat alandust, teist korda deemonit välja ajada, kuid ta pingutused kukkusid läbi. Andreas tunnistas ausalt lüüasaamist ja palus isal jääda ööseks või kuni Jeesuse tagasitulekuni nende juurde, öeldes: „Võib-olla läheb seda liiki vaim välja ainult Meistri isikliku käsu peale.”		158:4.7 (1756.4) Andrew was deeply chagrined at this ill-advised effort and its dismal failure. He called the apostles aside for conference and prayer. After this season of meditation, feeling keenly the sting of their defeat and sensing the humiliation resting upon all of them, Andrew sought, in a second attempt, to cast out the demon, but only failure crowned his efforts. Andrew frankly confessed defeat and requested the father to remain with them overnight or until Jesus’ return, saying: “Perhaps this sort goes not out except by the Master’s personal command.”
158:4.8 (1756.5) Sel ajal, kui Jeesus koos ülevas vaimustunud meeleolus Peetruse, Jaakobuse ja Johannesega mäelt alla tuli, olid nende üheksa venda segaduses ja alandusest rõhutuna unetud. Kogu nende rühm tundis masendust ja häbi. Ent Jaakobus Saafedist ei andnud alla. Ehkki nad ei osanud talle öelda, millal Jeesus võib tagasi tulla, otsustas ta Meistrit ootama jääda.		158:4.8 (1756.5) And so, while Jesus was descending the mountain with the exuberant and ecstatic Peter, James, and John, their nine brethren likewise were sleepless in their confusion and downcast humiliation. They were a dejected and chastened group. But James of Safed would not give up. Although they could give him no idea as to when Jesus might return, he decided to stay on until the Master came back.
5. Jeesus tervendab poisi ^top		5. Jesus Heals the Boy ^top
158:5.1 (1757.1) Jeesuse saabudes tundsid üheksa apostlit kergendust ning Peetruse, Jaakobuse ja Johannese näol kumav hea tuju ja ebatavaline entusiasm julgustasid neid väga. Nad tormasid kõik Jeesust ja oma kolme venda tervitama. Kui nad omavahel tervitussõnu vahetasid, kogunes nende ümber rahvahulk ja Jeesus küsis: „Mille üle te enne meie tulekut vaidlesite?” Ent enne, kui piinlikkust ja alandust tundvad apostlid Meistri küsimusele vastata jõudsid, astus lähemale haige poisi murelik isa ja ütles Jeesuse jalge ette põlvitades: „Meister, mu poega, mu ainsat last, on vallanud kuri vaim. Ta karjub hirmust, suu vahune, ja langeb haigushoo ajal nagu surnult maha, sageli aga tekitab teda vallanud vaim talle krampe, vahel heidab teda vette ja isegi tulle. Kogu see hammaste kiristamine ja need muljumishaavad kurnavad mu last. Ta elu on hullem kui surm, meil emaga on süda kurb ja vaim murtud. Eile lõuna paiku leidsin sind otsides eest su jüngrid ja sel ajal, kui me sind ootasime, püüdsid su apostlid deemonit välja ajada, aga nad ei suutnud. Kas sa, Meister, teeksid seda nüüd meie heaks ja raviksid mu poja terveks?”		158:5.1 (1757.1) As Jesus drew near, the nine apostles were more than relieved to welcome him, and they were greatly encouraged to behold the good cheer and unusual enthusiasm which marked the countenances of Peter, James, and John. They all rushed forward to greet Jesus and their three brethren. As they exchanged greetings, the crowd came up, and Jesus asked, “What were you disputing about as we drew near?” But before the disconcerted and humiliated apostles could reply to the Master’s question, the anxious father of the afflicted lad stepped forward and, kneeling at Jesus’ feet, said: “Master, I have a son, an only child, who is possessed by an evil spirit. Not only does he cry out in terror, foam at the mouth, and fall like a dead person at the time of seizure, but oftentimes this evil spirit which possesses him rends him in convulsions and sometimes has cast him into the water and even into the fire. With much grinding of teeth and as a result of many bruises, my child wastes away. His life is worse than death; his mother and I are of a sad heart and a broken spirit. About noon yesterday, seeking for you, I caught up with your disciples, and while we were waiting, your apostles sought to cast out this demon, but they could not do it. And now, Master, will you do this for us, will you heal my son?”
158:5.2 (1757.2) Kui Jeesus oli selle jutu ära kuulanud, puudutas ta põlvitavat isa ja palus tal tõusta, heites lähedalseisvatele apostlitele samal ajal küsiva pilgu. Siis ütles Jeesus kõigile, kes tema ees seisid: „Oh uskmatu ja jonnakas sugupõlv, kui kaua tuleb mul teiega kannatlik olla? Kui kauaks jään ma teie juurde? Millal ükskord te saate aru, et usuteod ei tärka kahtleva uskmatuse soovil?” Ning osutades hämmastunud isale, ütles Jeesus: „Too oma poeg siia.” Kui Jaakobus oli poisi Jeesuse ette toonud, küsis ta: „Kui kaua poisi haigus on kestnud?” Isa vastas: „Juba varasest lapseeast.” Samal ajal tabas poissi jälle äge haigushoog ja ta kukkus hambaid krigistades, suu vahus, nende sekka maha. Pärast mitut ägedat krambihoogu jäi ta nagu surnu lamama. Isa põlvitas nüüd taas Jeesuse jalge ette ja palus Meistrit: „Kui sa saad ta terveks teha, anun sind, halasta meile ja päästa meid sellest haigusest.” Neid sõnu kuuldes vaatas Jeesus murelikule isale otsa ja ütles: „Ära kahtle minu Isa armastuse jõus, vaid ainult oma usu siiruses ja ulatuses. Selle jaoks, kes tõeliselt usub, on kõik võimalik.” Siis ütles Jaakobus Saafedist need kauaks meelde jäävad sõnad, milles olid segunenud usk ja kahtlus: „Issand, ma usun, palun aita mind mu uskmatuses.”		158:5.2 (1757.2) When Jesus had listened to this recital, he touched the kneeling father and bade him rise while he gave the near-by apostles a searching survey. Then said Jesus to all those who stood before him: “O faithless and perverse generation, how long shall I bear with you? How long shall I be with you? How long ere you learn that the works of faith come not forth at the bidding of doubting unbelief?” And then, pointing to the bewildered father, Jesus said, “Bring hither your son.” And when James had brought the lad before Jesus, he asked, “How long has the boy been afflicted in this way?” The father answered, “Since he was a very young child.” And as they talked, the youth was seized with a violent attack and fell in their midst, gnashing his teeth and foaming at the mouth. After a succession of violent convulsions he lay there before them as one dead. Now did the father again kneel at Jesus’ feet while he implored the Master, saying: “If you can cure him, I beseech you to have compassion on us and deliver us from this affliction.” And when Jesus heard these words, he looked down into the father’s anxious face, saying: “Question not my Father’s power of love, only the sincerity and reach of your faith. All things are possible to him who really believes.” And then James of Safed spoke those long-to-be-remembered words of commingled faith and doubt, “Lord, I believe. I pray you help my unbelief.”
158:5.3 (1757.3) Kui Jeesus neid sõnu kuulis, astus ta ette, võttis poisil käest ja ütles: „Ma teen seda kooskõlas oma Isa tahtega ja elava usu auks. Tõuse, mu poeg! Välju temast, sõnakuulmatu vaim, ja ära tule kunagi enam tema sisse!” Ning pannes poisi käe isa kätte, lausus Jeesus: „Mine oma teed. Isa on su hinge soovi täitnud.” Kõik kohalviibijad, isegi Jeesuse vaenlased, olid nähtu üle imestunud.		158:5.3 (1757.3) When Jesus heard these words, he stepped forward and, taking the lad by the hand, said: “I will do this in accordance with my Father’s will and in honor of living faith. My son, arise! Come out of him, disobedient spirit, and go not back into him.” And placing the hand of the lad in the hand of the father, Jesus said: “Go your way. The Father has granted the desire of your soul.” And all who were present, even the enemies of Jesus, were astonished at what they saw.
158:5.4 (1757.4) Tagasipöördumine oma lüüasaanud ja ebamugavust tundvate apostlitest kaaslaste juurde purustas kiiresti nende kolme apostli illusioonid, kes olid hiljuti tundnud muutmise stseenidest ja kogemustest vaimset joovastust. Kuid taevariigi kaheteistkümne saadikuga oli see ikka nii olnud. Nende elukogemustes vaheldus ülev rõõm ikka alandusega.		158:5.4 (1757.4) It was indeed a disillusionment for the three apostles who had so recently enjoyed the spiritual ecstasy of the scenes and experiences of the transfiguration, so soon to return to this scene of the defeat and discomfiture of their fellow apostles. But it was ever so with these twelve ambassadors of the kingdom. They never failed to alternate between exaltation and humiliation in their life experiences.
158:5.5 (1758.1) See oli tõeline kahekordse haiguse, füüsilise vaeva ja vaimu haiguse ravimine. Sellest ajast peale oli poiss terve. Kui Jaakobus oli oma tervenenud pojaga lahkunud, ütles Jeesus: „Läheme nüüd Filippuse Kaisareasse, seadke end kohe valmis.” lõuna poole rännates, rahvahulk kannul, oli nende rühm väga vaikne.		158:5.5 (1758.1) This was a true healing of a double affliction, a physical ailment and a spirit malady. And the lad was permanently cured from that hour. When James had departed with his restored son, Jesus said: “We go now to Caesarea-Philippi; make ready at once.” And they were a quiet group as they journeyed southward while the crowd followed on behind.
6. Celsuse aias ^top		6. In Celsus’ Garden ^top
158:6.1 (1758.2) Nad jäid ööseks Celsuse juurde ja tol õhtul, olles söönud ja puhanud, kogunesid kaksteist apostlit aias Jeesuse ümber ning Toomas ütles: „Meister, meie, mahajäänud, ei tea küll ikka veel, mis mäel juhtus ja mis meie sinuga koos olnud vendi nii rõõmustas, kuid me tahaksime sinuga rääkida oma lüüasaamisest ja palume sul meile neis asjus õpetust anda, sest saame aru, et mäel juhtunut ei saa sa praegu avaldada.”		158:6.1 (1758.2) They remained overnight with Celsus, and that evening in the garden, after they had eaten and rested, the twelve gathered about Jesus, and Thomas said: “Master, while we who tarried behind still remain ignorant of what transpired up on the mountain, and which so greatly cheered our brethren who were with you, we crave to have you talk with us concerning our defeat and instruct us in these matters, seeing that those things which happened on the mountain cannot be disclosed at this time.”
158:6.2 (1758.3) Jeesus aga vastas Toomale: „Kõike seda, mis teie vennad mäel kuulsid, ilmutatakse kord ka teile. Nüüd aga selgitan, miks teie läbimõtlematud katsed luhtusid. Sel ajal kui teie Meister tõusis teie kaaslaste ja vendadega eile tollele mäele Isa tahet lähemalt teada saama ja jumaliku tahte tõhusaks täitmiseks tarkust juurde paluma, ei suutnud teie, kes te jäite siia valvama ja pidite püüdma omandada vaimset taipamist ja palvetama koos meiega Isa tahte täielikumaks ilmutamiseks, oma usku kasutada, vaid andsite järele kiusatusele ning endistele pahelistele kalduvustele taotleda paremat kohta taevariigis — mida siiani ainelise ja ajaliku kuningriigina endale ette kujutate. Te peate neist ekslikest arusaamadest kinni, hoolimata sellest, et ma olen ikka ja jälle korranud, et minu kuningriik pole mitte sellest maailmast.		158:6.2 (1758.3) And Jesus answered Thomas, saying: “Everything which your brethren heard on the mountain shall be revealed to you in due season. But I will now show you the cause of your defeat in that which you so unwisely attempted. While your Master and his companions, your brethren, ascended yonder mountain yesterday to seek for a larger knowledge of the Father’s will and to ask for a richer endowment of wisdom effectively to do that divine will, you who remained on watch here with instructions to strive to acquire the mind of spiritual insight and to pray with us for a fuller revelation of the Father’s will, failed to exercise the faith at your command but, instead, yielded to the temptation and fell into your old evil tendencies to seek for yourselves preferred places in the kingdom of heaven—the material and temporal kingdom which you persist in contemplating. And you cling to these erroneous concepts in spite of the reiterated declaration that my kingdom is not of this world.
158:6.3 (1758.4) Vaevalt on teie usk jõudnud Inimese Poja olemuse mõistmiseni, kui teie isekas soov maiseid eeliseid saada hiilib teie juurde jälle tagasi ja te hakkate omavahel arutama, kes peaks olema suurem taevariigis, kuningriigis, mida sellisel kujul, nagu teie seda endiselt ette kujutate, ei ole olemas ega saa ka kunagi olema. Kas ma pole siis teile öelnud, et see, kes on minu Isa vaimses vennaskonnas suurim, peab kõigepealt saama omaenda silmis väikeseks ja hakkama oma vendi teenima? Vaimne suurus seisneb mõistvas armastuses, mis on Jumala sarnane, mitte aga rõõmu tundmises ainelise võimu kasutamisest enese ülendamiseks. Teie püüded, mis nii täielikult läbi kukkusid, ei olnud puhtad. Te ei lähtunud jumalikust motiivist. Teie ideaal ei olnud vaimne. Teie püüdlus ei olnud altruistlik. Te ei tegutsenud armastusega ning teie eesmärk ei olnud täita taevase Isa tahet.		158:6.3 (1758.4) “No sooner does your faith grasp the identity of the Son of Man than your selfish desire for worldly preferment creeps back upon you, and you fall to discussing among yourselves as to who should be greatest in the kingdom of heaven, a kingdom which, as you persist in conceiving it, does not exist, nor ever shall. Have not I told you that he who would be greatest in the kingdom of my Father’s spiritual brotherhood must become little in his own eyes and thus become the server of his brethren? Spiritual greatness consists in an understanding love that is Godlike and not in an enjoyment of the exercise of material power for the exaltation of self. In what you attempted, in which you so completely failed, your purpose was not pure. Your motive was not divine. Your ideal was not spiritual. Your ambition was not altruistic. Your procedure was not based on love, and your goal of attainment was not the will of the Father in heaven.
158:6.4 (1758.5) Millal ükskord te saate aru, et loodusnähtuste ajalist kulgu saab lühendada vaid sel juhul, kui see vastab Isa tahtele? Vaimujõuta ei saa te teha ka vaimset tööd. Kumbagi neist ei saa teha, isegi kui potentsiaal nendeks on olemas, ilma kolmanda ja põhilise inimtegurita — elava usu isikliku kogemuseta. Kas taevariigi vaimureaalsuste veetluseks on alati vaja ainelisi avaldumisi? Kas te ei mõista minu missiooni vaimset tähtsust ilma nähtavate imetegudeta? Millal võin loota, et jääte truuks taevariigi kõrgematele vaimsetele reaalsustele, olenemata kõigist välistest ainelistest avaldumistest?”		158:6.4 (1758.5) “How long will it take you to learn that you cannot time-shorten the course of established natural phenomena except when such things are in accordance with the Father’s will? nor can you do spiritual work in the absence of spiritual power. And you can do neither of these, even when their potential is present, without the existence of that third and essential human factor, the personal experience of the possession of living faith. Must you always have material manifestations as an attraction for the spiritual realities of the kingdom? Can you not grasp the spirit significance of my mission without the visible exhibition of unusual works? When can you be depended upon to adhere to the higher and spiritual realities of the kingdom regardless of the outward appearance of all material manifestations?”
158:6.5 (1759.1) Kui Jeesus oli seda kaheteistkümnele öelnud, lisas ta: „Nüüd aga heitke puhkama, sest homme läheme Magadani tagasi ja arutame seal oma misjonitööd Dekapolise linnades ja külades. Ning kokkuvõtteks tänasest päevast ütlen ma igaühele teist, mida rääkisin teie vendadele mäel, ja jäägu need sõnad sügavale teie südameisse: nüüd algab Inimese Poja annetumise viimane etapp. Nüüd alustame neid töid, mis viivad peagi teie usu ja andumuse suurele ja lõplikule läbikatsumisele, kui mind antakse inimeste kätte, kes soovivad minu hävingut. Ja pidage meeles, mis ma teile ütlen: Inimese Poeg surmatakse, kuid ta tõuseb uuesti üles.”		158:6.5 (1759.1) When Jesus had thus spoken to the twelve, he added: “And now go to your rest, for on the morrow we return to Magadan and there take counsel concerning our mission to the cities and villages of the Decapolis. And in the conclusion of this day’s experience, let me declare to each of you that which I spoke to your brethren on the mountain, and let these words find a deep lodgment in your hearts: The Son of Man now enters upon the last phase of the bestowal. We are about to begin those labors which shall presently lead to the great and final testing of your faith and devotion when I shall be delivered into the hands of the men who seek my destruction. And remember what I am saying to you: The Son of Man will be put to death, but he shall rise again.”
158:6.6 (1759.2) Apostlid heitsid kurvalt magama. Nad olid hämmeldunud ega suutnud kuuldud sõnadest aru saada. Nad kartsid kuuldu kohta küsimusi esitada, kuid kõik see meenus neile pärast Jeesuse ülestõusmist.		158:6.6 (1759.2) They retired for the night, sorrowful. They were bewildered; they could not comprehend these words. And while they were afraid to ask aught concerning what he had said, they did recall all of it subsequent to his resurrection.
7. Peetruse protest ^top		7. Peter’s Protest ^top
158:7.1 (1759.3) Tol kolmapäeva hommikul lahkus Jeesus koos kaheteistkümnega Filippuse Kaisareast Betsaida-Juliase lähedal asuvasse Magadani parki. Apostlid said tol ööl väga vähe magada ning olid seepärast varakult üleval ja valmis teele asuma. Jutt Jeesuse surmast oli ehmatanud isegi tuimi Alfeuse kaksikuid. Lõuna poole rännates jõudsid nad kohe pärast Meeromi veest möödumist Damaskuse teele, ning soovides vältida kirjatundjaid ja teisi, kes peagi pidid neile järgnema, käskis Jeesus minna Kapernauma Damaskuse teed pidi, mis kulgeb läbi Galilea. Seda tegi ta sellepärast, et teadis: need, kes tulevad tema järel, lähevad idapoolset Jordani teed mööda, arvates, et Jeesus ja apostlid kardavad Herodes antipase territooriumi läbida. Jeesus püüdis oma kritiseerijatest ja talle järgnevast rahvahulgast kõrvale hoida, et tol päeval apostlitega omaette olla.		158:7.1 (1759.3) Early this Wednesday morning Jesus and the twelve departed from Caesarea-Philippi for Magadan Park near Bethsaida-Julias. The apostles had slept very little that night, so they were up early and ready to go. Even the stolid Alpheus twins had been shocked by this talk about the death of Jesus. As they journeyed south, just beyond the Waters of Merom they came to the Damascus road, and desiring to avoid the scribes and others whom Jesus knew would presently be coming along after them, he directed that they go on to Capernaum by the Damascus road which passes through Galilee. And he did this because he knew that those who followed after him would go on down over the east Jordan road since they reckoned that Jesus and the apostles would fear to pass through the territory of Herod Antipas. Jesus sought to elude his critics and the crowd which followed him that he might be alone with his apostles this day.
158:7.2 (1759.4) Nad rändasid läbi Galilea ja peatusid end värskendama alles tükk aega pärast lõunaaega. Kui oldi einetanud, ütles Andreas Jeesusele: „Meister, mu vennad ei saa sinu sügavamõttelistest ütlustest aru. Oleme hakanud täielikult uskuma, et sa oled Jumala Poeg, nüüd aga kuuleme neid imelikke sõnu, et sa kavatsed meist lahkuda, surra. Me ei saa sinu õpetusest aru. Kas sa räägid meile mõistujuttu? Palun räägi meiega otse ja avameelselt.”		158:7.2 (1759.4) They traveled on through Galilee until well past the time for their lunch, when they stopped in the shade to refresh themselves. And after they had partaken of food, Andrew, speaking to Jesus, said: “Master, my brethren do not comprehend your deep sayings. We have come fully to believe that you are the Son of God, and now we hear these strange words about leaving us, about dying. We do not understand your teaching. Are you speaking to us in parables? We pray you to speak to us directly and in undisguised form.”
158:7.3 (1759.5) Jeesus vastas andreasele: „Mu vennad, kuna te tunnistasite mind Jumala Pojaks, olen sunnitud teile avama tõe Inimese Poja maise annetumise lõpu kohta. Te tahate tingimata uskuda, et mina olen messias, ega loobu mõttest, et messias peab istuma Jeruusalemmas troonile. Mina aga kordan teile ikka ja jälle, et Inimese Poeg peab minema peagi Jeruusalemma, kannatama paljut, saama tagasi lükatud kirjatundjate, sünagoogivanemate ja ülempreestrite poolt, mille järel ta surmatakse ja ta surnuist üles tõuseb. Ja ma ei räägi teile mõistujuttu, ma räägin teile tõde, et te oleksite valmis neiks sündmusteks, kui need äkki kätte jõuavad.” Jeesus polnud veel lõpetanud, kui Siimon Peetrus tema juurde tormas, käe Meistri õlale pani ja ütles: „Meister, me ei hakka sinuga vaidlema, aga ma kinnitan sulle, et midagi niisugust ei juhtu sinuga iialgi.”		158:7.3 (1759.5) In answer to Andrew, Jesus said: “My brethren, it is because you have confessed that I am the Son of God that I am constrained to begin to unfold to you the truth about the end of the bestowal of the Son of Man on earth. You insist on clinging to the belief that I am the Messiah, and you will not abandon the idea that the Messiah must sit upon a throne in Jerusalem; wherefore do I persist in telling you that the Son of Man must presently go to Jerusalem, suffer many things, be rejected by the scribes, the elders, and the chief priests, and after all this be killed and raised from the dead. And I speak not a parable to you; I speak the truth to you that you may be prepared for these events when they suddenly come upon us.” And while he was yet speaking, Simon Peter, rushing impetuously toward him, laid his hand upon the Master’s shoulder and said: “Master, be it far from us to contend with you, but I declare that these things shall never happen to you.”
158:7.4 (1760.1) Peetrus rääkis nii sellepärast, et ta armastas Jeesust, Meistri inimloomus tundis aga neis heade kavatsustega ja kiindumusega öeldud sõnades ära varjatud kavatsuse ahvatleda teda loobuma maise annetumise lõpuleviimisest oma Paradiisi-Isa tahte kohaselt. Just seepärast, et ta tajus, kui ohtlik on lasta isegi oma armastavatel ja ustavatel sõpradel end veenda vastupidises, pöördus ta Peetruse ja teiste apostlite poole ning ütles: „Ärge takistage mind. Teis on vaenlase, ahvatleja vaimu. Sellise jutuga ei ole te mitte minu, vaid pigem meie vaenlaste poolel. Nii muudate oma armastuse minu vastu mulle komistuskiviks Isa tahte täitmisel. Ärge hoolige inimeste võetud suunast, vaid pigem Jumala tahtest.”		158:7.4 (1760.1) Peter spoke thus because he loved Jesus; but the Master’s human nature recognized in these words of well-meant affection the subtle suggestion of temptation that he change his policy of pursuing to the end his earth bestowal in accordance with the will of his Paradise Father. And it was because he detected the danger of permitting the suggestions of even his affectionate and loyal friends to dissuade him, that he turned upon Peter and the other apostles, saying: “Get you behind me. You savor of the spirit of the adversary, the tempter. When you talk in this manner, you are not on my side but rather on the side of our enemy. In this way do you make your love for me a stumbling block to my doing the Father’s will. Mind not the ways of men but rather the will of God.”
158:7.5 (1760.2) Kui nad olid toibunud esimesest ehmatusest, mida Jeesuse torkav etteheide valmistas, ütles Meister enne uuesti teele asumist veel järgmist: „Kui keegi soovib minu järel käia, ärgu ta enda peale mõelgu, vaid täitku oma igapäevakohustusi ja järgigu mind. Sest kes iganes isekalt oma elu päästab, kaotab selle; kes aga kaotab oma elu minu ja evangeeliumi pärast, päästab selle. Mis kasu on inimesel sellest, kui ta võidab endale maailma, kaotab aga seejuures hinge? Mida annaks inimene igavese elu vastu? Ärge häbenege mind ja minu sõnu selle patuse ja silmakirjaliku põlvkonna seas, nii nagu mina ei häbene omaks tunnistada teid, kui ma ilmun auhiilguses kõigi taevavägede juuresolekul oma Isa ette. Hoolimata sellest ei saa paljud teist, kes te praegu minu ees seisate, surma maitsta enne, kui näete seda jumalariiki vägevalt tulemas.”		158:7.5 (1760.2) After they had recovered from the first shock of Jesus’ stinging rebuke, and before they resumed their journey, the Master spoke further: “If any man would come after me, let him disregard himself, take up his responsibilities daily, and follow me. For whosoever would save his life selfishly, shall lose it, but whosoever loses his life for my sake and the gospel’s, shall save it. What does it profit a man to gain the whole world and lose his own soul? What would a man give in exchange for eternal life? Be not ashamed of me and my words in this sinful and hypocritical generation, even as I will not be ashamed to acknowledge you when in glory I appear before my Father in the presence of all the celestial hosts. Nevertheless, many of you now standing before me shall not taste death till you see this kingdom of God come with power.”
158:7.6 (1760.3) Nii selgitas Jeesus kaheteistkümnele valusat ja vastuolulist teed, mida nad pidid astuma, kui soovisid talle järgneda. Kui ehmatavad tundusid need sõnad galilea kaluritele, kes ikka veel unistasid maisest kuningriigist, kus neile antaks aukohad! See julge üleskutse aga puudutas nende ustavat südant ja ükski neist ei soovinud Jeesust hüljata. Jeesus ei jätnud neid vastuoludesse üksi, ta juhtis neid. Ta palus neil ainult vapralt järgneda.		158:7.6 (1760.3) And thus did Jesus make plain to the twelve the painful and conflicting path which they must tread if they would follow him. What a shock these words were to these Galilean fishermen who persisted in dreaming of an earthly kingdom with positions of honor for themselves! But their loyal hearts were stirred by this courageous appeal, and not one of them was minded to forsake him. Jesus was not sending them alone into the conflict; he was leading them. He asked only that they bravely follow.
158:7.7 (1760.4) Kaksteist apostlit hakkasid aegamööda aru saama, et Jeesus rääkis neile oma surma võimalikkusest. Nad said tema jutust surma kohta ainult ähmaselt aru, surnuist ülestõusmine oli aga nende meelele täiesti arusaamatu. Päevade möödudes hakkasid Peetrus, Jaakobus ja Johannes, meenutades muutmise mäel kogetut, mõningatest neist asjadest paremini aru saama.		158:7.7 (1760.4) Slowly the twelve were grasping the idea that Jesus was telling them something about the possibility of his dying. They only vaguely comprehended what he said about his death, while his statement about rising from the dead utterly failed to register in their minds. As the days passed, Peter, James, and John, recalling their experience upon the mount of the transfiguration, arrived at a fuller understanding of certain of these matters.
158:7.8 (1760.5) Kogu selle aja, mis kaksteist apostlit olid Jeesusega koos veetnud, olid nad vaid mõne korra kuulnud Jeesust nii välkuvail silmil ja ootamatult ütlemas etteheitvaid sõnu, nagu Peetrus ja teised tol korral pidid kuulma. Jeesus oli alati nende inimlike nõrkuste suhtes kannatlik olnud, välja arvatud siis, kui need ähvardasid ohustada tema Isa tahte täitmise kava tema ülejäänud maise elujärgu suhtes. Apostlid olid lausa jahmunud, nad olid hämmastunud ja hirmul. Nad ei suutnud oma kurvastuse väljendamiseks sõnu leida. Tasapisi hakkasid nad aru saama, mida Meistril tuleb kogeda, ja taipama, et nemad peavad need kogemused temaga koos läbi tegema, kuid eelseisvate sündmuste reaalsust mõistsid nad alles tükk aega pärast seda, kui Jeesus oma elu lõppu ähvardava tragöödia kohta varajasi vihjeid oli andnud.		158:7.8 (1760.5) In all the association of the twelve with their Master, only a few times did they see that flashing eye and hear such swift words of rebuke as were administered to Peter and the rest of them on this occasion. Jesus had always been patient with their human shortcomings, but not so when faced by an impending threat against the program of implicitly carrying out his Father’s will regarding the remainder of his earth career. The apostles were literally stunned; they were amazed and horrified. They could not find words to express their sorrow. Slowly they began to realize what the Master must endure, and that they must go through these experiences with him, but they did not awaken to the reality of these coming events until long after these early hints of the impending tragedy of his latter days.
158:7.9 (1761.1) Vaikides asus Jeesus koos kaheteistkümnega Kapernauma kaudu teele nende laagrisse Magadani pargis. Õhtu jooksul rääkisid nad palju omavahel, kuid mitte Jeesusega; Andreas aga vestles Meistriga.		158:7.9 (1761.1) In silence Jesus and the twelve started for their camp at Magadan Park, going by way of Capernaum. As the afternoon wore on, though they did not converse with Jesus, they talked much among themselves while Andrew talked with the Master.
8. Peetruse kojas ^top		8. At Peter’s House ^top
158:8.1 (1761.2) Õhtuhämaruses Kapernauma jõudes läksid nad õhtusöögiks üksildasi tänavaid pidi otse Siimon Peetruse majja. Sel ajal kui Taavet Sebedeus valmistus neid üle järve viima, ootasid nad Siimoni kodus ja Jeesus küsis Peetrusele ning teistele apostlitele otsa vaadates: „Mida te täna õhtul koos kõndides nii tõsiselt omavahel arutasite?” Apostlid vaikisid, sest paljud neist olid jätkanud Hermoni mäel alustatud arutelu sellest, missugused ametikohad nad saabuvas taevariigis võiksid saada, kes peaks olema kõrgem ja nii edasi. Jeesus teadis, mis neil tol päeval mõtteis oli, viipas ühe Peetruse lastest enda juurde, pani ta nende sekka istuma ja ütles: „Tõesti, tõesti, ma ütlen teile, kui te ei pöördu ega muutu rohkem selle lapse sarnaseks, jõuate taevariigis vähe edasi. See, kes muudab end alandlikuks ja saab selle väikese lapse sarnaseks, tõuseb taevariigis suurimaks. Ning kes võtab vastu selle väikese, võtab vastu ka minu. Ja need, kes võtavad vastu minu, võtavad vastu ka Tema, kes mind on saatnud. Kui soovite olla taevariigis esimesed, püüdke anda neid häid tõdesid edasi oma lihalikele vendadele. Aga sellele, kes paneb mõne neist väikestest komistama, oleks parem, kui ta kaela oleks riputatud veskikivi ja ta oleks merre heidetud. Kui teie kätetöö või silmaga nähtav takistab taevariigi edenemist, ohverdage need kalliks peetud väärjumalad, sest on parem astuda taevariiki ilma paljude elus armastatud asjadeta kui klammerduda nende väärjumalate külge ja leida end taevariigist väljajäetuna. Ent eelkõige jälgige, et te ei põlastaks mõnda neist väikestest, sest nende inglid näevad alati taevavägede palgeid.”		158:8.1 (1761.2) Entering Capernaum at twilight, they went by unfrequented thoroughfares directly to the home of Simon Peter for their evening meal. While David Zebedee made ready to take them across the lake, they lingered at Simon’s house, and Jesus, looking up at Peter and the other apostles, asked: “As you walked along together this afternoon, what was it that you talked about so earnestly among yourselves?” The apostles held their peace because many of them had continued the discussion begun at Mount Hermon as to what positions they were to have in the coming kingdom; who should be the greatest, and so on. Jesus, knowing what it was that occupied their thoughts that day, beckoned to one of Peter’s little ones and, setting the child down among them, said: “Verily, verily, I say to you, except you turn about and become more like this child, you will make little progress in the kingdom of heaven. Whosoever shall humble himself and become as this little one, the same shall become greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoso receives such a little one receives me. And they who receive me receive also Him who sent me. If you would be first in the kingdom, seek to minister these good truths to your brethren in the flesh. But whosoever causes one of these little ones to stumble, it would be better for him if a millstone were hanged about his neck and he were cast into the sea. If the things you do with your hands, or the things you see with your eyes give offense in the progress of the kingdom, sacrifice these cherished idols, for it is better to enter the kingdom minus many of the beloved things of life rather than to cling to these idols and find yourself shut out of the kingdom. But most of all, see that you despise not one of these little ones, for their angels do always behold the faces of the heavenly hosts.”
158:8.2 (1761.3) Kui Jeesus oli jutu lõpetanud, astusid nad paati ja purjetasid teisele poole järve Magadani.		158:8.2 (1761.3) When Jesus had finished speaking, they entered the boat and sailed across to Magadan.