182. Kiri		Paper 182
Ketsemanis		In Gethsemane
182:0.1 (1963.1) KELL oli tol neljapäeva õhtul umbes kümme, kui Jeesus viis üksteist apostlit Eelija ja Maarja Markuse kodust tagasi Ketsemani laagrisse. Alates tollest mägedes veedetud päevast oli Johannes Markus pidanud oma kohuseks Jeesust valvata. Magamata Johannes sai viimaks mitu tundi puhata, kui Meister viibis apostlitega ülakorruse kambris, aga kuuldes neid alla tulemas, tõusis ta, heitis endale kiiresti linase kuue ümber ja järgnes neile läbi linna ning edasi üle Kidroni oja nende privaatsesse laagrisse Ketsemani pargi kõrval. Johannes Markus jäi kogu selleks ööks ja järgmiseks päevaks Meistrile nii lähedale, et nägi kõike ja kuulis paljut, mis Meister kuni ristilöömistunnini ütles.		182:0.1 (1963.1) IT WAS about ten o’clock this Thursday night when Jesus led the eleven apostles from the home of Elijah and Mary Mark on their way back to the Gethsemane camp. Ever since that day in the hills, John Mark had made it his business to keep a watchful eye on Jesus. John, being in need of sleep, had obtained several hours of rest while the Master had been with his apostles in the upper room, but on hearing them coming downstairs, he arose and, quickly throwing a linen coat about himself, followed them through the city, over the brook Kidron, and on to their private encampment adjacent to Gethsemane Park. And John Mark remained so near the Master throughout this night and the next day that he witnessed everything and overheard much of what the Master said from this time on to the hour of the crucifixion.
182:0.2 (1963.2) Kui Jeesus ja üksteist apostlit laagrisse tagasi läksid, hakkasid apostlid arutlema, mida Juuda pikk äraolek võib tähendada, ja rääkisid omavahel Meistri ennustusest, et üks nende seast ta reedab. Nad kahtlustasid esimest korda, et Juudas Iskariotiga ei ole kõik korras. Aga nad ei arutanud midagi avalikult enne, kui olid jõudnud laagrisse ja näinud, et teda polnud seal neid vastu võtmas. Kui kõik hakkasid Andreast üle puistama küsimustega, mis Juudast on saanud, märkis nende juht ainult: „Ma ei tea, kus Juudas on, aga ma kardan, et ta on meid maha jätnud.”		182:0.2 (1963.2) As Jesus and the eleven made their way back to camp, the apostles began to wonder about the meaning of Judas’s prolonged absence, and they spoke to one another concerning the Master’s prediction that one of them would betray him, and for the first time they suspected that all was not well with Judas Iscariot. But they did not engage in open comment about Judas until they reached the camp and observed that he was not there, waiting to receive them. When they all besieged Andrew to know what had become of Judas, their chief remarked only, “I do not know where Judas is, but I fear he has deserted us.”
1. Viimane ühispalve ^top		1. The Last Group Prayer ^top
182:1.1 (1963.3) Mõni hetk pärast laagrisse jõudmist ütles Jeesus: „Mu sõbrad ja vennad, mul on jäänud teiega vähe aega koos olla ning ma tahan, et läheksime eemale ja paluksime oma taevaselt Isalt jõudu, mis toetaks meid sel tunnil ja edaspidi kõigis töödes, mis me tema nimel peame tegema.”		182:1.1 (1963.3) A few moments after arriving at camp, Jesus said to them: “My friends and brethren, my time with you is now very short, and I desire that we draw apart by ourselves while we pray to our Father in heaven for strength to sustain us in this hour and henceforth in all the work we must do in his name.”
182:1.2 (1963.4) Kui Jeesus oli seda öelnud, läks ta teiste ees mööda Õlimäe nõlva veidi kõrgemale, kohta, kust oli näha kogu Jeruusalemm, ja palus neil põlvitada ringis enda ümber suurele lamedale kaljule nagu nende ametisse pühitsemise päeval. Ta seisis apostlite keskel maheda kuuvalguse aupaistes, tõstis silmad taeva poole ja palvetas:		182:1.2 (1963.4) When Jesus had thus spoken, he led the way a short distance up on Olivet, and in full view of Jerusalem he bade them kneel on a large flat rock in a circle about him as they had done on the day of their ordination; and then, as he stood there in the midst of them glorified in the mellow moonlight, he lifted up his eyes toward heaven and prayed:
182:1.3 (1963.5) „Isa, mu tund on tulnud; nüüd ülenda oma Poega, et sinu Poeg saaks ülendada sind. Ma tean, et sa oled mulle andnud kogu meelevalla kõigi minu maailmas elavate loodud-olendite üle, ja ma annan igavese elu kõigile, kes soovivad Jumala usupoegadeks saada. Ja igavene elu on see, et minu loodud-olendid tunnevad sind kui ainsat tõelist Jumalat ja kõigi Isa, ning usuvad temasse, kelle sina oled maailma saatnud. Isa, ma olen ülendanud sind maa peal ja teinud ära töö, mis sa mulle teha andsid. Ma olen peaaegu lõpetanud oma annetumise meie enda loodu lastele, mul on jäänud veel anda vaid oma lihalik elu. Ja nüüd, oo, mu Isa, ülenda mind auga, mis mul oli sinu juures juba enne selle maailma loomist, ning võta mind taas oma paremale käele.		182:1.3 (1963.5) “Father, my hour has come; now glorify your Son that the Son may glorify you. I know that you have given me full authority over all living creatures in my realm, and I will give eternal life to all who will become faith sons of God. And this is eternal life, that my creatures should know you as the only true God and Father of all, and that they should believe in him whom you sent into the world. Father, I have exalted you on earth and have accomplished the work which you gave me to do. I have almost finished my bestowal upon the children of our own creation; there remains only for me to lay down my life in the flesh. And now, O my Father, glorify me with the glory which I had with you before this world was and receive me once more at your right hand.
182:1.4 (1964.1) Olen ilmutanud sind inimestele, kelle sa maailmast valisid ja mulle andsid. Nad on sinu omad — nagu on sinu kätes kogu elu —, sa andsid nad mulle ja ma elasin nende seas, õpetasin neile elu teed, ja nad uskusid. Neile inimestele saab selgeks, et kõik, mis mul on, tuleb sinult ning et minu lihaliku elu eesmärk on anda maailmadele teada oma Isast. Olen ilmutanud neile tõde, mis sa mulle andsid. Need mu sõbrad ja saadikud soovisid siiralt sinu sõna vastu võtta. Olen neile öelnud, et ma tulin sinu juurest, et sina oled mind siia maailma saatnud ning et ma peagi tulen sinu juurde tagasi. Isa, ma palvetan tõesti nende valitud meeste eest. Ja ma ei palu nende eest nii, nagu paluksin maailma eest; ma palvetan nende kui meeste eest, keda olen maailmast valinud esindama ennast maailmas pärast seda, kui olen sinu töö juurde tagasi pöördunud — nii nagu mina olen esindanud sind selles maailmas inimesena viibides. Need inimesed on minu, sa andsid nad mulle, aga kõik, mis on minu, on alati ka sinu, ja kõik, mis oli sinu, oled sa nüüd mulle andnud. Sind on ülendatud minus ja nüüd palvetan ma, et mind neis inimestes austataks. Ma ei saa enam kauem olla siin maailmas, vaid naasen peagi selle töö juurde, mis sa mulle teha oled andnud. Pean jätma need inimesed siia meid ja meie taevariiki inimeste seas esindama. Isa, hoia need mehed ustavad, kui ma valmistun andma oma inimelu. Aita neid mu sõpru olla vaimus üks, nii nagu meie oleme üks. Kuni sain nendega koos olla, võisin neid valvata ja neile teejuhiks olla, aga nüüd ma lahkun. Ole nende lähedal, Isa, kuni me saame saata uue õpetaja neid lohutama ja tugevdama.		182:1.4 (1964.1) “I have manifested you to the men whom you chose from the world and gave to me. They are yours—as all life is in your hands—you gave them to me, and I have lived among them, teaching them the way of life, and they have believed. These men are learning that all I have comes from you, and that the life I live in the flesh is to make known my Father to the worlds. The truth which you have given to me I have revealed to them. These, my friends and ambassadors, have sincerely willed to receive your word. I have told them that I came forth from you, that you sent me into this world, and that I am about to return to you. Father, I do pray for these chosen men. And I pray for them not as I would pray for the world, but as for those whom I have chosen out of the world to represent me to the world after I have returned to your work, even as I have represented you in this world during my sojourn in the flesh. These men are mine; you gave them to me; but all things which are mine are ever yours, and all that which was yours you have now caused to be mine. You have been exalted in me, and I now pray that I may be honored in these men. I can no longer be in this world; I am about to return to the work you have given me to do. I must leave these men behind to represent us and our kingdom among men. Father, keep these men faithful as I prepare to yield up my life in the flesh. Help these, my friends, to be one in spirit, even as we are one. As long as I could be with them, I could watch over them and guide them, but now am I about to go away. Be near them, Father, until we can send the new teacher to comfort and strengthen them.
182:1.5 (1964.2) Sa andsid mulle kaksteist meest ja ma olen kõik nad alles hoidnud peale ühe, kättemaksupoja, kes ei soovi enam meie vendlust. Need mehed on nõdrad ja nõrgad, aga ma tean, et me võime neid usaldada. Ma olen nad proovile pannud, nad armastavad mind ja austavad hardalt sind. Nad peavad küll minu pärast palju kannatama, aga ma soovin, et neid täidaks samal ajal rõõm, mida pakub kindel teadmine oma pojaseisusest taevariigis. Olen andnud neile meestele sinu sõna ja õpetanud neile tõde. Maailm võib neid vihata, nagu ta vihkab mind, aga ma ei palu, et sa nad maailmast ära kutsuksid, vaid ainult seda, et sa hoiaksid neid maailma kurjuse eest. Pühitse neid tões, sest sinu sõna on tõde. Ja nii nagu sa mind siia maailma saatsid, saadan mina need mehed maailma. Nende pärast olen elanud inimeste seas ja pühendanud oma elu sinu teenimisele. Olen püüdnud neid innustada puhastuma tõe kaudu, mida olen neile õpetanud, ja armastuse kaudu, mida olen neile ilmutanud. Ma tean hästi, mu Isa, et mul pole vaja sind paluda, et sa nende vendade eest hoolitseksid, kui ma olen lahkunud; ma tean, et sa armastad neid nii nagu mina, aga ma teen seda, et nad paremini mõistaksid, et Isa armastab surelikku inimest samamoodi nagu Poeg.		182:1.5 (1964.2) “You gave me twelve men, and I have kept them all save one, the son of revenge, who would not have further fellowship with us. These men are weak and frail, but I know we can trust them; I have proved them; they love me, even as they reverence you. While they must suffer much for my sake, I desire that they should also be filled with the joy of the assurance of sonship in the heavenly kingdom. I have given these men your word and have taught them the truth. The world may hate them, even as it has hated me, but I do not ask that you take them out of the world, only that you keep them from the evil in the world. Sanctify them in the truth; your word is truth. And as you sent me into this world, even so am I about to send these men into the world. For their sakes I have lived among men and have consecrated my life to your service that I might inspire them to be purified through the truth I have taught them and the love I have revealed to them. I well know, my Father, that there is no need for me to ask you to watch over these brethren after I have gone; I know you love them even as I, but I do this that they may the better realize the Father loves mortal men even as does the Son.
182:1.6 (1964.3) Ja nüüd, mu Isa, tahaksin palvetada mitte ainult nende üheteistkümne mehe, vaid ka kõigi teiste eest, kes praegu usuvad või tänu edaspidisele jutlustamistööle taevariigi evangeeliumi uskuma hakkavad. Tahan, et nad kõik oleksid üks, nii nagu mina ja sina oleme üks. Sina oled minus ja mina sinus ja ma soovin, et ka need uskujad oleksid meis, et neis elaks meie mõlema vaim. Kui mu lapsed on üks, nii nagu meie oleme üks, ja kui nad armastavad üksteist nii, nagu mina olen neid armastanud, hakkavad kõik inimesed uskuma, et ma tulin sinu juurest, ning on valmis vastu võtma minu ilmutuse tõest ja auhiilgusest. Olen neile uskujatele ilmutanud auhiilgust, mis sa mulle oled andnud. Nagu sina oled elanud minuga vaimus, nii olen mina elanud nendega lihas. Nii nagu sina oled olnud minuga üks, olen mina olnud nendega üks ja nii on ka uus õpetaja alati nende sisimas ja nendega üks. Kõike seda olen ma teinud, et minu lihalikud vennad teaksid, et Isa armastab neid samamoodi kui Poeg ning et sa armastad neid nii, nagu armastad mind. Isa, aita mul päästa neid uskujaid, et nad peagi tuleksid auhiilguses minu juurde ja läheksid siit edasi sinu juurde Paradiisi-embusse. Tahaksin neid, kes koos minuga alanduses teenivad, kohata enda juures auhiilguses, et nad näeksid kõike, mis sa oled minu kätte andnud — minu inimesena külvatud ajalike seemnete igavikulist saaki. Igatsen näidata oma maistele vendadele auhiilgust, mis meil oli sinuga juba enne selle maailma rajamist. See maailm teab sinust väga vähe, õiglane Isa, aga mina tunnen sind ja olen sinust neile uskujatele teada andnud ja nemad annavad teada sinu nime järgmistele põlvedele. Ja nüüd ma tõotan neile, et sa oled nendega koos maailmas, nagu oled olnud minuga — täpselt samamoodi.”		182:1.6 (1964.3) “And now, my Father, I would pray not only for these eleven men but also for all others who now believe, or who may hereafter believe the gospel of the kingdom through the word of their future ministry. I want them all to be one, even as you and I are one. You are in me and I am in you, and I desire that these believers likewise be in us; that both of our spirits indwell them. If my children are one as we are one, and if they love one another as I have loved them, all men will then believe that I came forth from you and be willing to receive the revelation of truth and glory which I have made. The glory which you gave me I have revealed to these believers. As you have lived with me in spirit, so have I lived with them in the flesh. As you have been one with me, so have I been one with them, and so will the new teacher ever be one with them and in them. And all this have I done that my brethren in the flesh may know that the Father loves them even as does the Son, and that you love them even as you love me. Father, work with me to save these believers that they may presently come to be with me in glory and then go on to join you in the Paradise embrace. Those who serve with me in humiliation, I would have with me in glory so that they may see all you have given into my hands as the eternal harvest of the seed sowing of time in the likeness of mortal flesh. I long to show my earthly brethren the glory I had with you before the founding of this world. This world knows very little of you, righteous Father, but I know you, and I have made you known to these believers, and they will make known your name to other generations. And now I promise them that you will be with them in the world even as you have been with me—even so.”
182:1.7 (1965.1) Üksteist apostlit põlvitasid ringis ümber Jeesuse veel mõne minuti, enne kui tõusid ja läksid vaikides tagasi lähedalasuvasse laagrisse.		182:1.7 (1965.1) The eleven remained kneeling in this circle about Jesus for several minutes before they arose and in silence made their way back to the near-by camp.
182:1.8 (1965.2) Jeesus palvetas ühtsuse eest oma poolehoidjate seas, kuid ta ei soovinud ühetaolisust. Patt loob pahelise loiduse surnud tasandi, kuid õiglus toidab isikliku kogemuse loovat vaimu igavese tõe elavates reaalsustes ning Isa ja Poja jumalike vaimude üha suuremas osaduses. Uskujast poja vaimses vendluses jumaliku Isaga ei saa kunagi olla rühmateadvuse doktriinlikku lõplikkust ja sektantlikku üleolekutunnet.		182:1.8 (1965.2) Jesus prayed for unity among his followers, but he did not desire uniformity. Sin creates a dead level of evil inertia, but righteousness nourishes the creative spirit of individual experience in the living realities of eternal truth and in the progressive communion of the divine spirits of the Father and the Son. In the spiritual fellowship of the believer-son with the divine Father there can never be doctrinal finality and sectarian superiority of group consciousness.
182:1.9 (1965.3) Meister vihjas selle viimase apostlitega peetud palve ajal asjaolule, et ta oli avaldanud maailmale Isa nime. Ja seda tegi ta tõesti, ilmutades Jumalat oma täiusliku inimelu kaudu. Taevane Isa oli püüdnud ilmutada end Moosesele, kuid ei jõudnud kaugemale sõnadest „MINA OLEN”. Ja kui tal paluti end täpsemini ilmutada, avaldas ta ainult: „MINA OLEN too, kes MINA OLEN.” Kuid Jeesus oli oma maise elu lõpuks Isa nime sedavõrd ilmutanud, et Meister, kelles Isa oli kehastunud, võis tõesti öelda:		182:1.9 (1965.3) The Master, during the course of this final prayer with his apostles, alluded to the fact that he had manifested the Father’s name to the world. And that is truly what he did by the revelation of God through his perfected life in the flesh. The Father in heaven had sought to reveal himself to Moses, but he could proceed no further than to cause it to be said, “I AM.” And when pressed for further revelation of himself, it was only disclosed, “I AM that I AM.” But when Jesus had finished his earth life, this name of the Father had been so revealed that the Master, who was the Father incarnate, could truly say:
182:1.10 (1965.4) Mina olen eluleib.		182:1.10 (1965.4) I am the bread of life.
182:1.11 (1965.5) Mina olen elav vesi.		182:1.11 (1965.5) I am the living water.
182:1.12 (1965.6) Mina olen maailma valgus.		182:1.12 (1965.6) I am the light of the world.
182:1.13 (1965.7) Mina olen kõigi ajastute soov.		182:1.13 (1965.7) I am the desire of all ages.
182:1.14 (1965.8) Mina olen avatud uks igavesse pääsemisse.		182:1.14 (1965.8) I am the open door to eternal salvation.
182:1.15 (1965.9) Mina olen lõputu elu reaalsus.		182:1.15 (1965.9) I am the reality of endless life.
182:1.16 (1965.10) Mina olen hea karjane.		182:1.16 (1965.10) I am the good shepherd.
182:1.17 (1965.11) Mina olen lõputu täiuslikkuse tee.		182:1.17 (1965.11) I am the pathway of infinite perfection.
182:1.18 (1965.12) Mina olen ülestõusmine ja elu.		182:1.18 (1965.12) I am the resurrection and the life.
182:1.19 (1965.13) Mina olen igavese ellujäämise saladus.		182:1.19 (1965.13) I am the secret of eternal survival.
182:1.20 (1965.14) Mina olen tee, tõde ja elu.		182:1.20 (1965.14) I am the way, the truth, and the life.
182:1.21 (1965.15) Mina olen oma piiratud võimetega laste lõputu Isa.		182:1.21 (1965.15) I am the infinite Father of my finite children.
182:1.22 (1965.16) Mina olen tõeline viinapuu, teie olete oksad.		182:1.22 (1965.16) I am the true vine; you are the branches.
182:1.23 (1965.17) Mina olen kõigi nende lootus, kes tunnevad elavat tõde.		182:1.23 (1965.17) I am the hope of all who know the living truth.
182:1.24 (1965.18) Mina olen elav sild ühest maailmast teise.		182:1.24 (1965.18) I am the living bridge from one world to another.
182:1.25 (1965.19) Mina olen elav side aja ja igaviku vahel.		182:1.25 (1965.19) I am the living link between time and eternity.
182:1.26 (1965.20) Nii avardas Jeesus Jumala nime elavat ilmutust kõigile põlvedele. Nagu jumalik armastus ilmutab Jumala olemust, avaldab igavene tõde tema nime üha avaramalt.		182:1.26 (1965.20) Thus did Jesus enlarge the living revelation of the name of God to all generations. As divine love reveals the nature of God, eternal truth discloses his name in ever-enlarging proportions.
2. Viimane tund enne äraandmist ^top		2. Last Hour Before the Betrayal ^top
182:2.1 (1966.1) Apostlid olid lausa vapustatud, kui nad laagrisse tagasi pöördudes Juudast ikka eest ei leidnud. Kui üksteist apostlit rääkisid ägedalt sellest reeturlikust apostlist, viisid Taavet Sebedeus ja Johannes Markus Jeesuse kõrvale ning ütlesid talle, et nad on Juudast mitu päeva jälginud ja teadsid, et Juudas kavatseb ta vaenlaste kätte anda. Jeesus kuulas nad ära, kuid ütles ainult: „Mu sõbrad, Inimese Pojaga juhtub vaid see, mida taevane Isa tahab. Ärge vaevake südant murega, kõik toimub lõpuks Jumala auhiilguse ja inimeste päästmise nimel.”		182:2.1 (1966.1) The apostles were greatly shocked when they returned to their camp and found Judas absent. While the eleven were engaged in a heated discussion of their traitorous fellow apostle, David Zebedee and John Mark took Jesus to one side and revealed that they had kept Judas under observation for several days, and that they knew he intended to betray him into the hands of his enemies. Jesus listened to them but only said: “My friends, nothing can happen to the Son of Man unless the Father in heaven so wills. Let not your hearts be troubled; all things will work together for the glory of God and the salvation of men.”
182:2.2 (1966.2) Jeesuse hea tuju oli kadumas. Kui oli möödunud taas üks tund, muutus ta veel tõsisemaks ja isegi kurvaks. Apostlid olid väga ärevil ega tahtnud oma telkidesse minna, kuigi Meister ise käskis neil seda teha. Tulles jutuajamiselt Taaveti ja Johannesega, ütles ta kõigile üheteistkümnele veel viimased sõnad: „Mu sõbrad, minge puhkama. Valmistuge homseks tööks. Pidage meeles, et me kõik peame alluma taevase Isa tahtele. Rahu olgu teiega.” Ja seda lausunud, andis ta neile märku telkidesse minna, aga kui nad minekule asusid, kutsus ta Peetruse, Jaakobuse ja Johannese tagasi ning ütles: „Tahan, et te veel veidikeseks minu juurde jääksite.”		182:2.2 (1966.2) The cheerful attitude of Jesus was waning. As the hour passed, he grew more and more serious, even sorrowful. The apostles, being much agitated, were loath to return to their tents even when requested to do so by the Master himself. Returning from his talk with David and John, he addressed his last words to all eleven, saying: “My friends, go to your rest. Prepare yourselves for the work of tomorrow. Remember, we should all submit ourselves to the will of the Father in heaven. My peace I leave with you.” And having thus spoken, he motioned them to their tents, but as they went, he called to Peter, James, and John, saying, “I desire that you remain with me for a little while.”
182:2.3 (1966.3) Apostlid uinusid vaid seepärast, et nad olid täiesti kurnatud; nad olid liiga vähe magada saanud Jeruusalemma saabumisest saadik. Enne kui igaüks oma magamiskohta läks, kutsus seloot Siimon nad oma telgi juurde, kus hoiti mõõku ja muid relvi, ja jagas võitlusvarustuse välja. Igaüks sai endale relva ja sidus selle kohe vööle, välja arvatud Naatanael. Keeldudes relvastumast, ütles Naatanael: „Mu vennad, Meister on meile korduvalt öelnud, et tema taevariik pole sellest maailmast ning et tema jüngrid ei tohi seda mõõgaga rajada. Mina usun seda, ma ei arva, et meil on Meistri kaitseks vaja mõõka tarvitada. Me kõik oleme näinud tema vägevust ja teame, et ta võiks end oma vaenlaste ees kaitsta, kui vaid sooviks. Võib-olla ei osuta ta oma vaenlastele vastupanu sellepärast, et püüab sündmuste sellise kuluga oma Isa tahet täita. Ma palvetan, kuid ei kasuta mõõka.” Kui Andreas Naatanaeli juttu kuulis, andis ka tema oma mõõga seloot Siimonile tagasi. Nii oli neist üheksa ööseks lahku minnes relvastatud.		182:2.3 (1966.3) The apostles fell asleep only because they were literally exhausted; they had been running short on sleep ever since their arrival in Jerusalem. Before they went to their separate sleeping quarters, Simon Zelotes led them all over to his tent, where were stored the swords and other arms, and supplied each of them with this fighting equipment. All of them received these arms and girded themselves therewith except Nathaniel. Nathaniel, in refusing to arm himself, said: “My brethren, the Master has repeatedly told us that his kingdom is not of this world, and that his disciples should not fight with the sword to bring about its establishment. I believe this; I do not think the Master needs to have us employ the sword in his defense. We have all seen his mighty power and know that he could defend himself against his enemies if he so desired. If he will not resist his enemies, it must be that such a course represents his attempt to fulfill his Father’s will. I will pray, but I will not wield the sword.” When Andrew heard Nathaniel’s speech, he handed his sword back to Simon Zelotes. And so nine of them were armed as they separated for the night.
182:2.4 (1966.4) Pahameel Juuda kui äraandja üle varjutas hetkel apostlite meeltes kõik muu. Meistri märkus Juuda kohta viimse palve ajal avas nende silmad tõsiasjale, et Juudas oli nad hüljanud.		182:2.4 (1966.4) Resentment of Judas’s being a traitor for the moment eclipsed everything else in the apostles’ minds. The Master’s comment in reference to Judas, spoken in the course of the last prayer, opened their eyes to the fact that he had forsaken them.
182:2.5 (1966.5) Kui kaheksa apostlit olid lõpuks telkidesse läinud ning Peetrus, Jaakobus ja Johannes seisid Meistri kõrval, et tema korraldusi vastu võtta, ütles Jeesus Taavet Sebedeusele: „Saada minu juurde oma kõige väledam ja usaldusväärsem sõnumitooja.” Kui Taavet tõi Meistri juurde Jaakobi-nimelise mehe, kes oli varem ühe ööga sõnumeid Jeruusalemmast Betsaidasse viinud, sõnas Jeesus talle: „Mine ruttu Filadelfiasse Abneri juurde ja ütle talle: „Meister saadab sulle rahutervitusi ja teatab, et on tulnud tund, mil ta antakse vaenlaste kätte, kes ta surmavad. Kuid ta tõuseb surnuist ja ilmub peagi teie ette, enne kui Isa juurde läheb, ning annab teile õpetust ajani, mil teie südameisse tuleb uus õpetaja.” Ja kui Jaakob oli sõnumit korranud ning Meister temaga rahule jäänud, saatis Jeesus ta teele, öeldes: „Ära karda, Jaakob, et keegi sind ohustab — täna öösel jookseb sinu kõrval nähtamatu sõnumitooja.”		182:2.5 (1966.5) After the eight apostles had finally gone to their tents, and while Peter, James, and John were standing by to receive the Master’s orders, Jesus called to David Zebedee, “Send to me your most fleet and trustworthy messenger.” When David brought to the Master one Jacob, once a runner on the overnight messenger service between Jerusalem and Bethsaida, Jesus, addressing him, said: “In all haste, go to Abner at Philadelphia and say: ‘The Master sends greetings of peace to you and says that the hour has come when he will be delivered into the hands of his enemies, who will put him to death, but that he will rise from the dead and appear to you shortly, before he goes to the Father, and that he will then give you guidance to the time when the new teacher shall come to live in your hearts.’” And when Jacob had rehearsed this message to the Master’s satisfaction, Jesus sent him on his way, saying: “Fear not what any man may do to you, Jacob, for this night an unseen messenger will run by your side.”
182:2.6 (1967.1) Siis pöördus Jeesus nendega koos laagris elavate kreeka külaliste juhi poole ja ütles: „Mu vend, ära lase end häirida sellest, mis peagi toimub, sest ma olen teid hoiatanud. Inimese Poeg surmatakse tema vaenlaste, juutide ülempreestrite ja valitsejate õhutusel, aga ma tõusen üles, et viibida enne Isa juurde naasmist veel lühikest aega teiega. Ja kui sa oled seda kõike näinud juhtuvat, ülista Jumalat ja ole oma vendadele toeks.”		182:2.6 (1967.1) Then Jesus turned to the chief of the visiting Greeks who were encamped with them, and said: “My brother, be not disturbed by what is about to take place since I have already forewarned you. The Son of Man will be put to death at the instigation of his enemies, the chief priests and the rulers of the Jews, but I will rise to be with you a short time before I go to the Father. And when you have seen all this come to pass, glorify God and strengthen your brethren.”
182:2.7 (1967.2) Tavalises olukorras oleksid kõik apostlid Meistrile isiklikult head ööd soovinud, aga tol õhtul valdas Juuda reetlikkuse äkiline mõistmine ja Meistri hüvastijätupalve ebatavalisus nende mõtteid sedavõrd, et nad kuulasid tema hüvastijätu ära ja läksid vaikides laiali.		182:2.7 (1967.2) In ordinary circumstances the apostles would have bidden the Master a personal good night, but this evening they were so preoccupied with the sudden realization of Judas’s desertion and so overcome by the unusual nature of the Master’s farewell prayer that they listened to his good-bye salutation and went away in silence.
182:2.8 (1967.3) Andreasest lahkudes ütles Jeesus talle siiski tol ööl: „Andreas, püüa igati oma vendi koos hoida seni, kuni ma pärast selle karika joomist jälle teie juurde tulen. Ole oma vendadele toeks, sest ma olen teile kõigest juba rääkinud. Rahu olgu sinuga.”		182:2.8 (1967.3) Jesus did say this to Andrew as he left his side that night: “Andrew, do what you can to keep your brethren together until I come again to you after I have drunk this cup. Strengthen your brethren, seeing that I have already told you all. Peace be with you.”
182:2.9 (1967.4) Ükski apostel ei arvanud, et sel ööl veel midagi erakordset juhtub, sest oli juba nii hilja. Nad tahtsid magada, et hommikul vara tõusta ja halvimaks valmistuda. Nad arvasid, et ülempreestrid püüavad nende Meistri vahistada varahommikul, sest paasapühaks valmistumise päeva pärastlõunal ilmalikke töid enam ei tehtud. Ainult Taavet Sebedeus ja Johannes Markus said aru, et Jeesuse vaenlased tulevad koos Juudaga selsamal ööl.		182:2.9 (1967.4) None of the apostles expected anything out of the ordinary to happen that night since it was already so late. They sought sleep that they might rise up early in the morning and be prepared for the worst. They thought that the chief priests would seek to apprehend their Master early in the morning as no secular work was ever done after noon on the preparation day for the Passover. Only David Zebedee and John Mark understood that the enemies of Jesus were coming with Judas that very night.
182:2.10 (1967.5) Taavet oli otsustanud jääda valvesse Betaania-Jeruusalemma teele viivale ülemisele teerajale, kuna Johannes Markus pidi valvama Ketsemani Kidronist tulevat teed. Enne kui Taavet läks seda endale võetud ülesannet täitma, jättis ta Jeesusega hüvasti, öeldes: „Meister, olen sinu teenistusest suurt rõõmu tundnud. Minu vennad on sinu apostlid, aga mina olen teinud hea meelega vähemtähtsaid töid, mida oli samuti vaja teha, ja hakkan kogu südamest sinu järele igatsema, kui sa läinud oled.” Ja Jeesus vastas Taavetile: „Taavet, mu sõber, teised on teinud, mida neid on kästud teha, aga sina oled teeninud oma südame sunnil ja sinu kiindumus pole mul tähele panemata jäänud. Ka sina teenid kunagi koos minuga igaveses taevariigis.”		182:2.10 (1967.5) David had arranged to stand guard that night on the upper trail which led to the Bethany-Jerusalem road, while John Mark was to watch along the road coming up by the Kidron to Gethsemane. Before David went to his self-imposed task of outpost duty, he bade farewell to Jesus, saying: “Master, I have had great joy in my service with you. My brothers are your apostles, but I have delighted to do the lesser things as they should be done, and I shall miss you with all my heart when you are gone.” And then said Jesus to David: “David, my son, others have done that which they were directed to do, but this service have you done of your own heart, and I have not been unmindful of your devotion. You, too, shall some day serve with me in the eternal kingdom.”
182:2.11 (1967.6) Valmistudes minema ülemist teerada valvama, ütles Taavet veel Jeesusele: „Tead, Meister, ma saatsin sinu pere järele ja sõnumitooja teatas, et nad jõudsid täna õhtul Jeerikosse. Nad on siin homme varasel hommikupoolikul, sest öösel oleks ohtlik vereteed mööda tulla.” Aga Jeesus ütles Taavetile otsa vaadates ainult: „Olgu siis nii, Taavet.”		182:2.11 (1967.6) And then, as he prepared to go on watch by the upper trail, David said to Jesus: “You know, Master, I sent for your family, and I have word by a messenger that they are tonight in Jericho. They will be here early tomorrow forenoon since it would be dangerous for them to come up the bloody way by night.” And Jesus, looking down upon David, only said: “Let it be so, David.”
182:2.12 (1967.7) Kui Taavet oli Õlimäele läinud, asus Johannes Markus valvesse tee äärde, mis viis ojakallast pidi Jeruusalemma. Ja Johannes olekski jäänud sellele valvepostile, kui ta poleks nii väga soovinud olla Jeesuse lähedal ja teada, mis toimub. Veidi pärast seda, kui Taavet tema juurest lahkus, nägi Johannes Markus Jeesust eemaldumas Peetruse, Jaakobuse ja Johannesega lähedal asuvasse jäärakusse. Teda valdas ühtaegu tohutu andumus ja uudishimu ning ta lahkus oma valvepostilt ja järgnes neile, peites end põõsastesse, kust nägi ja kuulis kõike, mis toimus aias neil viimastel hetkedel enne Juuda ja relvastatud valvurite ilmumist Jeesust vahistama.		182:2.12 (1967.7) When David had gone up Olivet, John Mark took up his vigil near the road which ran by the brook down to Jerusalem. And John would have remained at this post but for his great desire to be near Jesus and to know what was going on. Shortly after David left him, and when John Mark observed Jesus withdraw, with Peter, James, and John, into a near-by ravine, he was so overcome with combined devotion and curiosity that he forsook his sentinel post and followed after them, hiding himself in the bushes, from which place he saw and overheard all that transpired during those last moments in the garden and just before Judas and the armed guards appeared to arrest Jesus.
182:2.13 (1968.1) Samaaegselt nende Meistri laagris toimunud sündmustega pidas Juudas Iskariot nõu templivalvurite kapteniga, kes oli oma mehed kokku kogunud, et minna reeturi eestvedamisel Jeesust vahistama.		182:2.13 (1968.1) While all this was in progress at the Master’s camp, Judas Iscariot was in conference with the captain of the temple guards, who had assembled his men preparatory to setting out, under the leadership of the betrayer, to arrest Jesus.
3. Üksinda Ketsemanis ^top		3. Alone in Gethsemane ^top
182:3.1 (1968.2) Kui laagris oli jäänud rahulikuks ja vaikseks, läks Jeesus koos Peetruse, Jaakobuse ja Johannesega veidi kõrgemale lähedal asuvasse jäärakusse, kus oli sageli palvetamas ja aru pidamas käinud. Kolm apostlit nägid selgelt, et teda rõhub kurbus; mitte kunagi varem polnud nad näinud oma Meistrit nii raskemeelse ja kurvana. Kui nad tema palvepaika jõudsid, käskis ta kõigil kolmel istuda ja koos temaga ärkvel olla, ise aga läks umbes kiviviske kaugusele palvetama. Langenud silmili maha, palvetas ta: „Mu Isa, ma tulin siia maailma sinu tahet täitma ja olen seda tõesti teinud. Ma tean, et on saabunud tund sellest lihalikust elust loobuda; ma ei hoia sellest kõrvale, aga tahaksin teada, kas see on sinu tahe, et ma sellest karikast joon. Saada mulle kinnitus, et sa oled minu surmaga sama rahul nagu minu eluga.”		182:3.1 (1968.2) After all was still and quiet about the camp, Jesus, taking Peter, James, and John, went a short way up a near-by ravine where he had often before gone to pray and commune. The three apostles could not help recognizing that he was grievously oppressed; never before had they observed their Master to be so heavy-laden and sorrowful. When they arrived at the place of his devotions, he bade the three sit down and watch with him while he went off about a stone’s throw to pray. And when he had fallen down on his face, he prayed: “My Father, I came into this world to do your will, and so have I. I know that the hour has come to lay down this life in the flesh, and I do not shrink therefrom, but I would know that it is your will that I drink this cup. Send me the assurance that I will please you in my death even as I have in my life.”
182:3.2 (1968.3) Meister jäi mõneks hetkeks palvetamisasendisse, siis läks tagasi kolme apostli juurde ja leidis nad sügavasti magamas, sest nende laud olid muutunud raskeks ja nad polnud suutnud kauem ärkvel püsida. Neid äratades ütles Jeesus: „Mis! Kas te ei saa koos minuga üht tundigi valvata? Kas te ei näe, et mu hing on väga kurb, surmani kurb, ja ma vajan teie seltsi?” Kui kolm apostlit olid ärganud, taandus Meister jälle eemale üksindusse, langes maha ja palvetas taas: „Isa, ma tean, et seda karikat on võimalik vältida — sulle on kõik võimalik —, aga ma olen tulnud sinu tahet täitma ja ehkki see karikas on kibe, joon selle põhjani, kui see on sinu tahe.” Ja kui ta oli selle palve öelnud, laskus tema kõrvale vägev ingel, kes rääkis temaga ja puudutas teda ning andis talle jõudu.		182:3.2 (1968.3) The Master remained in a prayerful attitude for a few moments, and then, going over to the three apostles, he found them sound asleep, for their eyes were heavy and they could not remain awake. As Jesus awoke them, he said: “What! can you not watch with me even for one hour? Cannot you see that my soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even to death, and that I crave your companionship?” After the three had aroused from their slumber, the Master again went apart by himself and, falling down on the ground, again prayed: “Father, I know it is possible to avoid this cup—all things are possible with you—but I have come to do your will, and while this is a bitter cup, I would drink it if it is your will.” And when he had thus prayed, a mighty angel came down by his side and, speaking to him, touched him and strengthened him.
182:3.3 (1968.4) Kui Jeesus läks tagasi kolme apostli juurde, leidis ta mehed taas sügavast unest. Ta äratas nad ja ütles: „Mul on vaja, et te sel tunnil minuga valvaksite ja palvetaksite — ja seda enam on teil vaja palvetada, et te kiusatusse ei satuks —, miks jääte siis magama, kui ma teie juurest lahkun?”		182:3.3 (1968.4) When Jesus returned to speak with the three apostles, he again found them fast asleep. He awakened them, saying: “In such an hour I need that you should watch and pray with me—all the more do you need to pray that you enter not into temptation—wherefore do you fall asleep when I leave you?”
182:3.4 (1968.5) Ja siis läks Meister kolmandat korda eemale ning palvetas: „Isa, sa näed mu magavaid apostleid, halasta neile. Vaim on tõesti valmis, aga liha on nõder. Ja kui see karikas, Isa, ei või minust mööda minna, siis joon selle tühjaks. Kuid ärgu sündigu see, mida mina tahan, vaid see, mida sina tahad.” Ja palvetamise lõpetanud, lamas ta veel hetke maas. Siis ta tõusis ja läks oma apostlite juurde tagasi ning leidis nad jälle magamast. Ta vaatas neid ja ütles kaastundlikult neile osutades õrnalt: „Magage nüüd ja puhake, otsustamisaeg on möödas. Nüüd on saabunud tund, mil Inimese Poeg tema vaenlastele ära antakse.” Kui ta nende poole kummardus, et neid ärkvele raputada, ütles ta: „Tõuske, lähme laagrisse tagasi, sest ennäe, minu äraandja on juba lähedal ja saabunud on tund, mil mu kari laiali paisatakse. Aga ma olen teile neist asjust juba rääkinud.”		182:3.4 (1968.5) And then, for a third time, the Master withdrew and prayed: “Father, you see my sleeping apostles; have mercy upon them. The spirit is indeed willing, but the flesh is weak. And now, O Father, if this cup may not pass, then would I drink it. Not my will, but yours, be done.” And when he had finished praying, he lay for a moment prostrate on the ground. When he arose and went back to his apostles, once more he found them asleep. He surveyed them and, with a pitying gesture, tenderly said: “Sleep on now and take your rest; the time of decision is past. The hour is now upon us wherein the Son of Man will be betrayed into the hands of his enemies.” As he reached down to shake them that he might awaken them, he said: “Arise, let us be going back to the camp, for, behold, he who betrays me is at hand, and the hour has come when my flock shall be scattered. But I have already told you about these things.”
182:3.5 (1968.6) Nende aastate jooksul, mis Jeesus elas oma poolehoidjate seas, said need tema jumaliku olemuse kohta tõesti palju tõendeid, aga nüüd pidid nad peagi saama uusi tõendeid tema inimlikkuse kohta. Just enne tema jumalikkuse kaalukaimat ilmutust, tema ülestõusmist, pidid ilmnema kaalukaimad tõendid tema surelikkuse kohta — alandus ja ristilöömine.		182:3.5 (1968.6) During the years that Jesus lived among his followers, they did, indeed, have much proof of his divine nature, but just now are they about to witness new evidences of his humanity. Just before the greatest of all the revelations of his divinity, his resurrection, must now come the greatest proofs of his mortal nature, his humiliation and crucifixion.
182:3.6 (1969.1) Iga kord kui ta aias palvetas, võttis tema inimolemus ta jumalikust olemusest usu abil tugevamini kinni, tema inimtahe ühines üha täielikumalt tema Isa jumaliku tahtega. Vägev ingel andis talle muu hulgas edasi sõnumi, milles Isa soovis, et Poeg lõpetaks oma maise annetumise loodud-olendi surmakogemuse kaudu, nii nagu surelikud loodud-olendid peavad kogema ajalikust eksistentsist igavesse edasiliikumisse siirdudes ainelist lagunemist.		182:3.6 (1969.1) Each time he prayed in the garden, his humanity laid a firmer faith-hold upon his divinity; his human will more completely became one with the divine will of his Father. Among other words spoken to him by the mighty angel was the message that the Father desired his Son to finish his earth bestowal by passing through the creature experience of death just as all mortal creatures must experience material dissolution in passing from the existence of time into the progression of eternity.
182:3.7 (1969.2) Varem tol õhtul polnud sellest karikast joomine nii raske tundunud, aga kui inimene Jeesus oma apostlitega hüvasti jättis ja nad puhkama saatis, näis see katsumus aina kohutavam. Jeesus koges seda loomulikku tunnetetulva, mis kaasneb kõigi inimkogemustega, ta oli nüüd väsinud tööst, kurnatud pingelist tegevust täis pikkadest päevadest ja valusast ärevusest oma apostlite turvalisuse pärast. Ehkki ükski surelik ei või loota, et ta saab aru lihas kehastunud Inimese Poja mõtetest ja tunnetest sellisel ajal, teame, et ta tundis tohutut ängistust ja ütlemata suurt piina, sest ta näolt voolas suurte tilkadena higi. Ta veendus lõpuks, et Isa kavatseb lasta asjadel oma loomulikku rada minna; ta oli lõplikult otsustanud mitte rakendada enese päästmiseks enda kui universumi kõrgeima valitseja suveräänset võimu.		182:3.7 (1969.2) Earlier in the evening it had not seemed so difficult to drink the cup, but as the human Jesus bade farewell to his apostles and sent them to their rest, the trial grew more appalling. Jesus experienced that natural ebb and flow of feeling which is common to all human experience, and just now he was weary from work, exhausted from the long hours of strenuous labor and painful anxiety concerning the safety of his apostles. While no mortal can presume to understand the thoughts and feelings of the incarnate Son of God at such a time as this, we know that he endured great anguish and suffered untold sorrow, for the perspiration rolled off his face in great drops. He was at last convinced that the Father intended to allow natural events to take their course; he was fully determined to employ none of his sovereign power as the supreme head of a universe to save himself.
182:3.8 (1969.3) Hiiglaslikust loodust kokkukogunenud väehulgad hõljusid selle vaatepildi kohal Gabrieli ja Jeesuse Isikustatud Kohandaja ajutise ühise juhtimise all. Taevavägede divisjoniülemaid oli korduvalt hoiatatud, et nad neisse maistesse toimingutesse ei sekkuks, kui Jeesus ise neil sekkuda ei käsi.		182:3.8 (1969.3) The assembled hosts of a vast creation are now hovered over this scene under the transient joint command of Gabriel and the Personalized Adjuster of Jesus. The division commanders of these armies of heaven have repeatedly been warned not to interfere with these transactions on earth unless Jesus himself should order them to intervene.
182:3.9 (1969.4) Apostlitest lahkumise kogemus oli Jeesuse inimsüdamele suur katsumus: see armastusekurbus rõhus teda ja tal oli seetõttu veel raskem astuda vastu surmale, mida teadis ees ootavat. Ta mõistis, kui nõrgad ja teadmatud olid tema apostlid, ta kartis neid maha jätta. Ta teadis hästi, et lahkumise aeg oli kätte jõudnud, kuid tema inimsüda igatses välja uurida, kas sellest kohutavast, täbarast, kannatusi ja kurvastust toovast olukorrast ei ole äkki mõnda õigustatud pääseteed. Ja kui ta oli püüdnud pääseda ja see oli tal ebaõnnestunud, oli ta valmis karika tühjaks jooma. Miikaeli jumalik meel teadis, et ta oli kaheteistkümne apostli heaks andnud endast parima, aga Jeesuse inimsüda soovis, et nende heaks saaks veel midagi teha, enne kui nad maailma üksi jäävad. Jeesuse süda oli rusutud: ta armastas tõesti oma vendi. Ta oli lahus oma lihalikust perekonnast, üks tema väljavalitud kaaslastest oli teda ära andmas. Tema isa Joosepi rahvas oli ta tagasi lükanud ja võtnud endalt sellega oma saatuse maa peal erilist missiooni omava rahvana. Tema südant piinas nurjunud armastus ja tagasilükatud halastus. See oli üks neid kohutavaid inimlikke hetki, mil kõik näib rusuva julmusega ja kohutava agooniana inimese peale langevat.		182:3.9 (1969.4) The experience of parting with the apostles was a great strain on the human heart of Jesus; this sorrow of love bore down on him and made it more difficult to face such a death as he well knew awaited him. He realized how weak and how ignorant his apostles were, and he dreaded to leave them. He well knew that the time of his departure had come, but his human heart longed to find out whether there might not possibly be some legitimate avenue of escape from this terrible plight of suffering and sorrow. And when it had thus sought escape, and failed, it was willing to drink the cup. The divine mind of Michael knew he had done his best for the twelve apostles; but the human heart of Jesus wished that more might have been done for them before they should be left alone in the world. Jesus’ heart was being crushed; he truly loved his brethren. He was isolated from his family in the flesh; one of his chosen associates was betraying him. His father Joseph’s people had rejected him and thereby sealed their doom as a people with a special mission on earth. His soul was tortured by baffled love and rejected mercy. It was just one of those awful human moments when everything seems to bear down with crushing cruelty and terrible agony.
182:3.10 (1969.5) Jeesuse inimlik loomus ei jäänud selle isikliku üksinduse, avaliku häbi ja oma ürituse näilise läbikukkumise suhtes tundetuks. Kõik need tundmused rõhusid teda kirjeldamatu raskusega. Suures kurvastuses läksid ta mõtted tagasi lapsepõlvepäevadele Naatsaretis ja varasele tegevusele Galileas. Suure katsumuse ajal tulid talle meelde paljud tema maise hoolekandetöö seigad. Ja need ammused mälestused Naatsaretist, Kapernaumast, Hermoni mäest ja päikesetõusudest ning -loojangutest helkival Galilea merel rahustasid teda, kui ta oma inimsüdant tugevdas, valmistades seda ette kokkupõrkeks reeturiga, kes teda nii varsti pidi ära andma.		182:3.10 (1969.5) Jesus’ humanity was not insensible to this situation of private loneliness, public shame, and the appearance of the failure of his cause. All these sentiments bore down on him with indescribable heaviness. In this great sorrow his mind went back to the days of his childhood in Nazareth and to his early work in Galilee. At the time of this great trial there came up in his mind many of those pleasant scenes of his earthly ministry. And it was from these old memories of Nazareth, Capernaum, Mount Hermon, and of the sunrise and sunset on the shimmering Sea of Galilee, that he soothed himself as he made his human heart strong and ready to encounter the traitor who should so soon betray him.
182:3.11 (1970.1) Enne Juuda ja sõdurite saabumist oli Meister oma harjunud tasakaalukuse täielikult tagasi saanud; vaim oli liha üle võidu saavutanud, usk oli end kõigi inimlike hirmude ja kahtluste üle maksma pannud. Inimolemuse täieliku mõistmise ülim proov oli tublilt läbi tehtud. Inimese Poeg oli taas valmis oma vaenlastele vastu astuma rahuliku meelega ja täis kindlat usku oma võitmatusse sureliku inimesena, kes on täielikult pühendunud Isa tahte täitmisele.		182:3.11 (1970.1) Before Judas and the soldiers arrived, the Master had fully regained his customary poise; the spirit had triumphed over the flesh; faith had asserted itself over all human tendencies to fear or entertain doubt. The supreme test of the full realization of the human nature had been met and acceptably passed. Once more the Son of Man was prepared to face his enemies with equanimity and in the full assurance of his invincibility as a mortal man unreservedly dedicated to the doing of his Father’s will.